Loving You

chapter 19

 Red's POV

lumabas na kami galing sa principal office and it feels like hell.  Grabe hindi ko ma imagine pumunta ulit dun. buti nalang na lusutan namin. 

all of the sudden, I remember what I did. Gosh! what was I thinking really at that time. It feels so right when Blue kisses me. I was badly hurt dahil sa ginawa ni Nick sa akin. hindi ko rin alam kung saan galing yung lahat nang sinabi ko kanina. 

"Red" someone snapped her finger in front of me.

"yes?" 

"You're spacing out." Blue said looking seriously in me

'what?" 

"nevermind' 

naglakad na kaming lahat pabalik sa tambayan namin, syempre hindi na namin kasama si Nick. 

pagdating namin sa loob lahat sila ay tahimik waiting for me to tell them something?

"Guys?" I called out

"Pwede paki-explain ang nangyari kanina? ang gulo eh? hindi ko maintindihan. you being engaged to that guy. that guy who cheated on you twice. And YOU who kissed BLUE. Now tell me WHAT IS REALLY HAPENNING?!" Sab said while looking at me 

"ok. sasabihin ko lahat, just calm down. ok?" sabi ko. Huminga muna ako ng malalim bago nagsalita

"ok. Look sorry kung hindi ko sinabi sa inyu ang lahat. Me being a model. gusto ko lang naman pumunta dito nang hindi nila, ninyu nalalaman na model ako.  I hate it when people judge me because Im like this and like than. gusto ko lang naman na makita niyo ako bilang ako. Next is, me being engaged to that guy. It was offiicial weeks ago. hindi ko lang sinabi sa inyu kasi,,, you know... hindi naman talaga ako mahilig magkwento sa mga ganitong bagay.

Mas prefer ko itago sa sarili kahit masakit. It was an arreanged marriage after all. kilala sina Niko for their modeling agency. They just want us to be part of each companies kaya ginawa nila yun. at lastly nick being a jerk. Well, hindi ko naman alam na kailangan ko pang ikwento to sa inyu kasi malay ko bang gusto niyo malaman to. Ni hindi niyo nga alam ang tungkol sa amin. kaya I don't give time to share what I am feeling right now. I never had friends before whom I could trust for. So sorry for not trusting you guys. I'm truly am" nang matapos ako hindi ko na pigilan tumulo ang mga luha ko 

hindi sila nagsalita, they all stare at me. Now i hate myself for being so weak. ngayon lalayuan na nila ako dahil nagsinungaling ako sa kanila. I can't help myself from sobbing. Gosh! anong nangyayari sa akin?

minutes later, naramdaman ko nalang na may yumakap sa akin

"Sab?" tanong ko. I can't even imagines Sab is comforting me. I've never seen her like this

"hindi mo naman kasalanan kung may trust issues ka,  nabigla lang siguro ako o kahit kaming lahat. totoo nung una medyo nagalit ako sayo pero nung sabihin mo yung dahilan mo naiintidihan ko naman eh. kay please huwag ka ng umiyak jan oh" and she gave a sweet smile. I swear kung sino man ang magpapaiyak dito, I'll make him suffer. hahah ok ang OA kung pakinggan

"thank you so much Sab" i hugged her back and the rest of the gang hugged me too

the rest of the day went so smooth 

pag uwi ko sa bahay, Mom stood just in front of our house.

"Well, Rosaline, I just heard that  you want to decline the engagement. Is that true?" so sinabi pala ni Nick kay Mom.gosh how I hate him so much now

"Yes." 

"and why is that?" at bakit mo rin ako iniintriga?

"hindi ko siya mahal. and no matter what I do to make myself fall for him, I just can't"

"do you love someone?" mom asked me again. Now I'm curious kung galit ba siya sa akin o hindi pero napaisip ako sa sinabi niya. Do I love someone? and my mind went to Blue.

What the hell? Bakit napasok si Blue dito? I don't love him. 

but why did you kiss him? my conscience asked

because it felt so right?

then you love him

wow, I'm internally fighting my sub consciousness, 

“Rose?” Mom snapped her finger in front of my face “your spacing out” mom told me

“Po?” I looked confused, hindi ko alam anong isasagot ko

“may kinalaman ba dito si Blue?” I looked at mom with wide eyes. Pa’no niya nalaman ang tungkol kay Blue, wala akong sinabi sa kanya tungkol dito.

“Nick told me.” Napakunot ang noo ko nang malaman ko yun, ba’t ba palagi nalang niya ako inuunahan?

“are you against?” tanong ko

“No.” simpleng sagot ni Mom, I was shock once again. Akala ko ba mas gusto niyang pakasalan kami ni Nick

“I know that you are confused, pero sinabi din ni Nick sa akin na gusto niyo ang isa’t isa and I don’t want to be a antagonist in your little sweet love story. Honey, I want you to be happy. Gusto palagi kang nakangiti, alam ko I’m being so strict, ayaw ko lang masira ang career mo. I’m sorry.” At may tumulo na luha sa mga mata ni Mom, I was stunned, it was the 1st time that I saw my mom crying.

“I love you so much ma.” And I hugged her tightly

“I love too, Rose”

AN: sorry po kung short lang ang chapter na'to.