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09 - 06 - 1989

dear diary,

it's now 3AM. i know i should be sleeping right now - but, i just can't. my thoughts kept me up the whole night and now i just can't stop thinking.

while i was pondering, i realized that i had to come out to my friends at some point. i just can't just keep it a secret forever - right? i never keep a secret from them; especially richie. richie is my bestest friend in the whole world. yes, i know bestest is not a word; but that's not the point. anyway, richie is also my crush. although his dirty and corny jokes are annoying all the time, they never fail to make me laugh. i have to hide my laugh though or he'll tease me about it.

anyway, enough of richie and back to the topic. i really feel like i have to come out. i know it shouldn't be now though. i have to feel comfortable before i tell them. i also have to get ready for every possible reaction that they might give me. i just really hope they're not homophobic though. i love all of them to death and it would just hurt me immensely if they are.

i'm going to ask them later this afternoon if they're homophobic (so i can get ready). it might take some time to come out - but i guess that's okay. after all, it's basically just me saying 'i like boys and not girls' in the end.

my eyes are droopy now. goodnight.

with love,
eddie

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OOF. hey y'all i'm sorry for not updating hAHA jdnans i had exams and school is very stressful. we were supposed to have a test on history today but school was cancelled lmaaaao apparently, there was supposed to be a storm today but it's REALLY sunny i- djajd iT HASNT EVEN RAINED YET. it's also friday today and we have no classes for a whole week next week so get ready for some uPdAtEs.

trec 🌈