Smile // GOT7 Jinyoung

34. her

Jinyoung's pov:

"jinyoung hyung!" I jolt in surprise as I hear Yugyeom shout my name in anger. 

"uh...sorry, gyeom." I look down on my unfinished lunch sadly. the ramyun noodles are soggy now.

"37th." I hear Yoonjae mumble beside me. I look at him in confusion.

"It's the 37th time you've zoned out today." He simply says.

"oh." And before I knew it, I'm zoning out once again.

--

"jinyoung!" I was about to exit the school gate, and walk to the dorms with the guys, when I hear someone call me.

it was Jiwon. 

"you guys go on ahead." I tell them. They ask me if I'm sure and I nod my head. They each pat my back and say they'll see me in the dorms later. 

when they're finally gone, I turned to face Jiwon with a serious expression. 

she looked hurt, but quickly put a smile on. "wanna go grab ice cream?"

i have to hear what she has to say, anything that comes out of her mouth will be used against her. If she chooses to speak bad of Mina, then that makes her the bad person. 

"okay."

we sat on a table with high chairs in front of the parlor's window which gives a scenery of the school gates. Because of the winter season, the sun is already setting.

"I'm sorry, Jinyoung." she speaks. "I know that performance we had was a disaster, and you looked forward to performing with her. i'm so sorry."

I stayed silent. we had no performance, I ran out to find Mina that day, which cancelled our supposed to be "duet".

"Is she that special to you?" she looks at me, but I don't look back. "She's a really sweet girl."

"You know nothing about her." I snap.

"Yeah, I don't. And I feel so terrible for treating her that way. She's so nice and kind, qualities I'd never have. This world is too cruel for amazing people like her, the world doesn't deserve her."

she pauses to breathe. 

"And you like her a lot. I mean, what's not to like about her? She's everything. And now, nobody knows where she is. I don't even know how I can apologize, or if she'll even forgive me."

I'm a bit at loss by her words. Is this the kang jiwon I know? the kang jiwon everyone knows?

I finally found the words to speak. "Just like what you said, she's nice and kind, of course she'll forgive you. She forgives you even if you don't apologize. That's how kind her soul is."

"you think so?" she smiles a little, hope evident on her face.

"yeah, and you can be nice too. Even nicer than her. No one else knows but she hits us a lot." I laugh. "it's never too late to change, jiwon."

"Wherever she is, I hope she's happy and okay."

my heart hurt a little there but I manage a smile at her kind words.

"I'm sure she is."

--

Song Yoonjae's POV:

I sigh devastatingly as I pass by the school gates on the way home, alone. 

It's only been less than two weeks since she last walked this road with me. I ignored her nonstop talking most of the time, but now I realized that I would give up everything to hear her voice again, even if she blabs about senseless things, I would die to listen again.

I swing by the park first. Since the sun is about to set, children are going home from playing. I immediately went for the swings, and sat on one.

I stare at my feet, which are colliding with the gravel on the ground as I swing a little. 

My thoughts wander to her again. 

She's brave. I recall the first time I met her on that street, when she was running late and bumped into me. I've never seen someone so determined not to be late even though she already was. If I were her at that time, I would just walk calmly because I already know that there's absolutely no way I would arrive on time. 

but she's someone with high hopes and trusts herself even on the toughest times. She's smart and independent. she sees the good in everything.

That's why she's going to be fine. 

in my pocket, my phone rings a familiar tone. 

[HEY I JUST MET YOU. AND THIS IS CRAZY BUT HERE'S MY NUMBER..]

My eyes widened.

"..so call me maybe." I whispered.

i stand still in shock as the song continues. Is this a dream?

people passing by are giving me weird stares of why Call Me Maybe is playing, some are looking around, hoping to find the source not knowing it's me. 

the song plays till the next chorus, when I finally got hold of myself and took it from the pocket of my school khaki pants.

I look at the caller ID and see that my ears weren't deceiving me.

[Lee Mina calling] 

this isn't a dream.