I walked out of the girls toliets as the bell rang. I kept my head down as I walked past the girls from before. They said a few things that just made me walk faster. I didn't look up once. I decided I should see where im going atleast and straight away I see Jai staring at me. He ran up to me and hugged me. He noticed my face and my arms and everything. He took my hand and he lead me out of school and to an abanded park. I sat down on a park bench with him.
"Rhi, what happened?" Jai asked me really concerned. I just sighed. I actually have no idea what to say right now.
"Jai, its fine, I just tripped over and hit my face, im clumsy, you know that" I said to him forcing a smile to appear on my hurt face. He smiled back.
"I want you to have something to remember me by, if we split apart" Jai started to say, he grabbed out his song book from his bag, he opened up to a new page. I laughed, aw he wanted to write a song with me.
He started to sing some words as I made the beat. He put the first few lines onto the starting as I followed on, it sounded really good. It was lovey dovey aswell which was really cute.
Jai pulled the hair from my face and leant in, his lips crashed onto mine. I felt fireworks go off, like a million. We both pulled away, I just smiled and started singing the song. I loved it. The best part of it, its ours and no ones else.
Jai handed me his song book, 'here I want you to have this' Jai said. I took it with open hands. I smiled, I was actually so surprised he would give me one of his most favourite things. I love him so much.
"First one to the swings?" Jai said as he started running. I got up straight away and ran after him. It hurt like hell, but I had to put a brave face on and just pretend like everything was perfect.
I sat on the swing. I didn't really move it or anything like Jai was. But I just listened, listened to Jai, listened to the birds, and listened to the wind. The only good part of my life is Jai. He always will be my first love, of course I want him to be my only love. But its just impossible for that. Im starting to think, it'd be better if we were just friends, better for when I leave.
******HOME*******
Jai and I walked through the front door and Alana greeted us. She was so happy and full of energy. She said that dinner is on the table. We both ran into the kitchen like 5 year olds, which I couldn't help but laugh at. Alana had made us hamburgers in bread with a side serving of salad, this is perfect. I sat down with Jai at the table. I got out my phone and I started to take selfies with him. They were so cute and he's adorable.
When I finished my dinner, I told Jai that I was going to go have a shower. I walked up the stairs and into my bathroom. I turned the water on, I hoped in, I grabbed my razor. Tears dropped from my eyes. I cant believe I am actually going to go back to this again. I pressed it hard against the skin on my thigh. It burned and caused pain. The blood began to pour out. The same with my tears. I had bruises all down my body from where I had been kicked.
I don't know why everyone hates me, but now im starting to hate myself.
