his shield

006

jaehwan is at his lecture. he didn't sleep in today for a change and actually made it to the lecture room on time without my help.

i am just seated on the edge of the roof as i wait for him to finish.

my glamour in his mind worked. he doesn't remember what happened in the alleyway at all.

he will never remember it as i will not be making the same mistake again.

i can't help but feel tense after that conversation with jeonghan. it's just brought back the past.

it has brought back all the guilt which i spent 100 years burying deep down inside of me.

i frown and look down at the pathway where many students are just walking through.

"junghwa wait up! what's wrong?" i hear someone call out. i look to see a young man chasing after a girl.

"wonshik ah, what's wrong"

the memory begins to flood my head. the smallest triggers seem to be working really well today.

i don't shake off his touch. he holds me against his chest tightly and i feel safe and comforted.

"he will kill you, taekwoon ah. you can't be with me. you'll die" i say quietly into his shoulder.

"do you think i care about my life? i've already died once. i'm not scared to die again. even if he is going to kill me, at least i'll be happy knowing i spent my time with you. that it wasn't a waste" his voice sounds bitter sweet as he addresses the subject.

"but you can live for so much longer if you don't stay with me. you could marry someone and grow old with them. you can never grow old with me." i pull away just enough so i can look into his eyes.

"if i am going to ever marry someone, i will marry you" he smirks and i feel my heart beginning to break.

"can we stop talking about what may happen and go and have dinner like we had planned?"

"of course" i sniff and he raises his hand, gently wiping my tears with his thumb.

he presses his lips against mine softly and i hold onto this moment. i don't know how much longer i can stop jeonghan from hurting him.

i don't know how much longer i will have with him. i have to treasure every moment.

"are we still going to the movies tonight?" jaehwan's voice brings me back to reality.

i look to see him leaving the room with sanghyuk. they both look pretty happy. of course jeonghan did a good job when he watched over jaehwan for me.

i push myself off the roof and i land on the ground silently. i fall into step behind the pair.

i just listen in on their conversation with my hands in my pockets.

"i'd forgotten about that" sanghyuk states and jaehwan sighs, slightly annoyed.

"let me guess, you've made other plans" he speaks in a monotoned voice.

"i'm sorry. i organised to go out with my parents. maybe you could go with someone else?" sanghyuk suggests and jaehwan just frowns at him.

"and who else would i go with?"

"you could always go with your guardian angel. i'm sure they would be more than happy to go with you."

i can tell that sanghyuk is being sarcastic. i'm hoping jaehwan will also be able to tell. it shouldn't bring back any memories from that time in the alleyway but there is always the possibility.

"sure they will" is all he says. i tune out for the rest of the conversation. the pair just discuss what happened during the lecture.
not that interesting for a shield really.

jaehwan enters his apartment and i follow. i take a seat on his couch as he gets ready to head out.

he is going to see the movie by himself. he isn't going to let sanghyuk's absence stop him.

"are you ready?" he suddenly calls out. i look in the direction of him room in confusion.

"we have to go now if we want to make it on time" he states as he walks into the room.

he wears ripped blue jeans with a turtle neck sweater. he's pretty attractive for a mortal i guess.

"i'm going crazy" he says under his breath.
"who am i to talk to my guardian angel. they don't exist."

i chuckle softly at that. if only we didn't exist, he would have been dead at the ripe age of 7. that's right, i remember it as though it were yesterday.

jaehwan got his first scooter and he was so excited that he decided to ride it outside without waiting for his mother to catch up.

he hit a bump and went straight into the road. nearly got hit by a car. he would have if i didn't affect the steering of that four wheel drive.

that was the first time i saved his life. of course as he was a baby i would adjust the blankets and do all the little things to make sure he would sleep soundly and he wouldn't die.

jaehwan arrives at the cinema and buys himself a box of popcorn and a bottle of water.

he takes his seat in the theatre. i sigh before heading into the bathroom.

after checking to make sure that no one is in here, i mutter a few words and wave my right hand over my reflection in the mirror.

my appearance changes to match what taekwoon looked like. tall, black hair and gorgeous eyes. such an innocent look.

shields aren't allowed to be seen by their person yet we are allowed to morph into other people and play around a bit.

the only twist is that we can only morph into someone who is dead.

i walk out of the bathroom and head into the theatre. i take the seat beside jaehwan.

he looks at me briefly before focusing on the screen once more.

i smile to myself and watch the film beside him. it's just a normal, corny as hell movie.

there are no films at the institution and this is why. they are all absolute crap.

jaehwan gets out of his seat and goes to use the bathroom. i extend my foot and 'accidentally' trip him.

he stumbles and i mutter an apology. he just smiles at me and continues to walk away.

he soon comes back into the theatre and takes his seat once more.

just as the climax of the movie begins, he begins to chew the end of his nail.

i haven't been a mortal for nearly 700 years. i don't remember ever doing that to myself.

it makes no sense. why doesn't he just cut them? i actually see a lot of mortals biting them. it's almost as though they have their nails confused with food.

they are quite stupid really.

the movie soon finishes and jaehwan sits through all the credits. i just stay beside him.

we end up being the only two people left in the theatre by the time that we have to leave.

he smiles at me again before leaving. i don't follow. i just mutter a few words again before waving my right hand over my face, morphing back into my usual self.

i glamour myself and leave to look for the perfect place to use to get back to the institution.

A/N- what do you think of the short scene from wonshik's past? what about jaehwan's trip to the cinema?

also next chapter, wonshik's life as a mortal will be revealed as a new character is brought in.

thanks for reading!!