his shield

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jaehwan continues to hold a blade to his wrist everyday and calls for me to appear.

it's been easier to ignore him then i thought it would be. now he is just getting annoying.

i keep having to leave taeyong to train by himself as jaehwan is threatening to harm himself yet again.

on the bright side, jaehyun has been doing really well. he hasn't hurt himself since taeyong talked to him.

hongbin is glad. he is finally getting the chance to rest and doesn't have to be constantly concerned about his person.

i am currently standing in the street outside the town house which he is now living in.

my hands are shoved in my pockets as i look at the building.

jaehwan is making himself some ramen. no doubt he will call for me soon. that is why i'm here.

this is the one day that i don't schedule to train taeyong. if he wants he can train by himself, otherwise it's his day off.

he is doing extremely well. it's like he is going to be the next me. i think he will be a shield by the end of the month at the raw he is going.

besides, at the rate i'm going i may be dead leaving a huge gap for him to fill.

surprisingly jaehwan sits down with the ramen and doesn't pick up the knife like he did in my vision.

i sigh in relief and go to walk away but i hear his voice in my head.

"i know you are there."

he speaks to himself as he eats the ramen. i turn and look at the front door of the house.

"please just show yourself to me. one more time. please."

i hesitate but i turn to walk up the pavement to his front door.

i take in a deep breath to make sure i'm clamoured still before walking through the door and into the kitchen.

"all i am asking is for you to show yourself one more time. you never told me your name."

i cringe as the floorboards squeak beneath my foot. jaehwan's head snaps in my direction and he smiles to himself.

"so you are here" he says under his breath. i only just hear him.

i walk across the floor and pause behind him. he is wearing glasses again today.

i don't know why i haven't noticed how handsome he is before.

i go to pat his head comfortingly but i clench my hand into a fist and slowly pull away.

"it's okay. you can show yourself. i'm not scared" he states and i chuckle softly.

does he really think i'm glamoured because i think he's scared of me?

i close my eyes and think back to what jeonghan told me. 2 weeks to prove myself as the shield which i am supposed to be.

2 weeks to stop feeling for this boy. i didn't believe jeonghan at first but after thinking about it and feeling the way my heart clenches every time jaehwan begs for me to show myself has made me realise my true feelings.

i am falling in love yet again.

i don't want jeonghan to ruin this like he ruined taekwoon. i won't allow it.

but i have nothing to protect if i don't even show myself to the guy.

i open my eyes and remove my glamour. jaehwan doesn't notice as he is completely mesmerised by his bowl of ramen.

i slowly place my hands on his shoulders and he curses loudly, falling off his chair.

i look down at him in shock and he just looks at me his mouth wide open.

"you scared me" he says quietly and i smile softly. "you called." is all i say to him.

he grins and makes his way onto his feet.
"i called many times."

"and i've only answered now."

"why did you take so long?" he asks and i just sit where he was a mere few seconds ago.

"i have my reasons. i'm not explaining everything now. i don't have much time before i have to go back."

"why don't you stay here for awhile. maybe you could stay for dinner?" he offers.

"believe me, if i ate your food then i would" i say honestly and he looks at me in confusion.

"what do you eat?"

"food. just not mortal food. our food is prepared by a special chef."

that chef being jeonghan. he purchases normal food but he uses his powers to make it taste better for us. it also adds extra nutrients which helps to make us stronger.

"oh. maybe i could come try your food?" he seems to be amazed by his own idea.

"you'd probably die, but sure. 8 o'clock tomorrow work?" i ask sarcastically and he gulps.

"i should go. enjoy your noodles" i get out of the chair and go to glamour myself again but he grabs onto my arm.

"you just got here" he frowns and i just smile softly at him.

"and now i'm leaving." i glamour myself but jaehwan still speaks again. he still holds onto my arm even though he cannot see it.

"come back soon."

A/N - what do you think will happen no wonshik has shown himself to jaehwan again?

thanks for reading!!