Juvi // Fillie [COMPLETED]

3.

   -Warning: this chapter mentions self harm, so if you are uncomfortable with that, I suggest you skip this chapter.-

I see Romeo. Sitting at one of the far tables, eyeing me like a hawk. He winks at me, and I just flip him off with a fake smile, showing him I was not interested, and hoping he would get the message. Finn notices, and looks at me with disbelief. "Wow, you really hate that guy." He says looking at me. "Yeah, he is just a little bitch trying to get me to be his, but nah," I say rolling my eyes for what it seemed like to be the a thousandth time today. "Hey Millie, do you want to sit with me and my friends today?", He asks, giving a me a small smile.
Friends? I don't need any, nor want any.
"No, i'm good. I'm more of a loner", I say, grabbing a plate of sloppy joes. "The reason you are a loner is because you are a bitch, right?", he asks me, already knowing the answer. "Ha, very funny dickhead", I say, a hint of sarcasm in my voice. "Well, see you later then." He says, as I just wave and walk off to my spot.

I sit down outside, the sun hitting my skin, giving me a feeling of warmth. I sit at one of the far tables, next to the big grey gate.
Oh, how I hate that gate.
I sit down, and eat my food, just spacing off and thinking about the good times, when I wasn't trapped in this hell hole. A familiar guard comes my way, as I slightly smile. "Hey kid. What are you doing out here by yourself?", Hopper questions, raising an eyebrow. "Well, I hate everything and everyone, and i'm mostly a loner", I sigh, looking away. "That's a load of bullshit kid, I definitely know you are not a loner", he says rolling his eyes. "I am, and I have always been", I defended myself. "Sure sure, i'm sure if I asked your mother, she would say otherwise. You seem like a sweet girl", he says as my body fills with anger. I stand up, my face boiling with anger, as I use my hand, and throw the plate as hard as I can to the floor. It makes a big crash sound, as heads begin to turn our way. "Don't you ever mention my mother ever ever ever!" I scream with all of my might. At this point, there are tears spilling from my eyes. I run fast. Faster than I've ever ran in my entire life, leaving Hopper with the most shocked expression on his face.

I continue to run, shoving people, to make it to my room.
Thank god, Finn isn't here.
I sit on my bed, as I let the tears fall down my cheeks, my mouth tasting the saltiness of the wet drops. This is just great, I am having a full mental breakdown. I haven't had one of those in forever, but this time, the anger just got to me. I just sit in silence, nothing but the sound of me sobbing and quietly screaming into my pillow, all of my emotions spilling out.

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I sit in my bed, my head leaning back against the wall, tears still running down my cheek. My eyes were puffy from crying, and my eyes were probably as red as hell itself. Well, that is what happens when you cry for an hour straight. I decide to go into the bathroom, and try to clean myself up. I look in the mirror, as all of my assumptions are correct. Red eyes, very puffy, and my hair was a mess. A thought finally came to me. I wish I would have never thought of it, but sadly, I did. I have thought of it before, which is why I saved of piece of metal I found outside. I take 3 deep breaths, and I finally let the sharp metal cut my skin. I cry out in pain, as I continue to cut my wrist. I had already had 3 lines, spewing blood out. Before I could continue, I hear the door to the cell open, panic overwhelming my body, realizing it was probably Finn.

"Millie, what are you do-", he begins to ask, as pure shock and horror is shown on his face as he immediately sees my cuts and rushes to get some paper. "Millie?! How could you even think of doing this?!" He questions, tears falling from his eyes as well. At this point, im just full on crying, feeling so helpless, and weak. He takes the piece of metal I had out of my hand, and throws it in the toilet, flushing it. He carefully grabs my hands and takes me to his bed. "Finn....i'm sorry", is all I manage to say, looking into his eyes. "There is absolutely nothing to be sorry for Millie. I am just very concerned about you", he says quietly, still holding my hand. "I just....I just...", I say before being cut off. Finn just hugs me tight, as I feel tears streaming down my cheeks again. "You don't have to tell me right now, but please, tell my why", he says into my ear, calming me a bit. "Okay", is all I say, as we embrace im silence.

I enjoy the hug, as I slightly smile, thinking that someone actually cares about me.