a/n: does anybody wanna see my face or should i just stay alone and irrelevant?
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"mills, are you okay? that was quite a shove. do you need me to clean your elbows?" sadie said once they reached sadies house. the two girls sat down on the barstools that were placed by the island in the middle of the kitchen.
"i'm fine, sadie. it's happened before." millie said. "do you have any food? i could really go for some cheese right now."
sadie smirked and opened the fridge. she grabbed a block of almost white cheese. she opened the oak drawer and pulled a cheese slicer out and cut a piece of cheese for millie.
millie immediately grabbed and took a bite out of the cheese when sadie finished slicing it. her face changed from cheer to disgust in about five seconds.
vegan cheese. millie completely forgot that sadie's family was vegan.
"ew, ew, ew! what is that?" millie said, spitting out the cheese into the trashcan. she rubbed her tongue repeatedly to get rid of the taste.
"it's called vegan cheese. ever heard of it? yes i'm vegan and yes you know that you dumbass hoe." sadie said, and ruffled up millies hair when she sat back down on the barstool.
"hey i'm hungry don't blame me. all i wanted was some fucking food." millie laughed, but then frowned when she remembered finn existed, and sadie knew exactly who she was thinking about.
"hey millie, it'll be alright. sooner or later finn will realize that he needs to get his act together. who knows, maybe he'll be a dick forever. but i need you to know that you'll be okay." sadie said and grabbed millie's arm. "come on mills, i wanna give you a makeover. tomorrow at school nobody is gonna want to mess with you 'cause you're gonna look so hot."
the two walked upstairs and sadie ignored every whine from millie.
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at finns house, finn sat on his couch with iris on his lap. nobody else was there. iris smiled as finn kissed her neck, but it wasn't a happy smile, it was an evil grin. her best friends knew that iris was cheating on finn with romeo beckham.
romeo beckham. the idiot jock of the school. he was super rich, but he wasn't intelligent whatsoever.
iris's phone rang and she answered it. finn still stayed at her neck.
"oh hey, sorry i'm busy right now. i'll call you later babe." iris said to the person over the phone.
finn heard that it was a male on the phone, but he was too dumb to realize that "babe" meant "boyfriend no.2"
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"...and...done! oh my god millie i made you look like a goddess! come on we gotta go to school though." sadie said, after she finished the black wing on millie's eyes.
"sadie! you put to much makeup on me! i look like a clown! where's the makeup remover? i can't go to school looking like this!" millie shouted when she looked in the mirror which sat on sadie's desk.
"millie you look great! now i would let you take the makeup off, but we are going to be late for school!" sadie said while grabbing her red bookbag. she shoved her folders and binders in it.
millie groaned and ran out the door with sadie.
"sadie, people are going to tease me." millie said as they ran to school. sadie shook her head no.
when they arrived at school, sadie used american sign language to say, "if anyone hurts you, scream so i can hear you. i will come and attack them."
millie shook her hand to say "yes" even though she hadn't considered the fact that she would be harshly bullied that day. then she saw finn a few seconds after sadie walked away to class.
a/n: EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE JUST STARTED PLAYING AND I JUST STARTED CRYING SOMEONE CALL 911
finn's mouth opened and his eyes widened when he saw millie. millie wore a blue flowing dress (which was too short in millie's opinion but sadie insisted that she wear it) with a lot of bracelets to cover her scars from a couple years back.
finn and millie made eye contact and finn looked away to avoid any suspicious thoughts.
millie walked into her first class, receiving surprised gazes from all of the guys. the girls looked her up and down like mean girls. millie pulled down her dress, but she kept being the center of attention.
millie became uncomfortable and took her seat.
-(after school)-
millie ran out of the building a million miles an hour. she sprinted all the way to the waterfall in the woods.
when she reached her destination, she sat down on the stone ledge of the waterfall with her feet dangling off the side. she took deep breaths, and started crying. millie hated being looked at. she mostly just stayed quiet and alone.
millie buried her head in her knees and wrapped her arms around her legs. she let herself cry. her anxiety level was very high which meant that she could cry without ever stopping if she felt uncomfortable or sad.
"millie?" a voice said, to millie an unfriendly one.
finn
"millie?" he said again. "are you okay?"
"what the fuck do you care, finn. go away. i don't want you here." millie spat, looking up at finn.
he appeared extremely guilty. finn gulped, expecting an "iris on her period" type of attitude from millie. he knew he treated millie like shit, and he knew that she tried to die because of him. he felt like his world was ending and he didn't understand why.
"millie, i'm sorry."
"you're... sorry? well fuck me gently with a chainsaw. you, you are not sorry. i believed you the first time. not now. not ever again will i believe you th-that you're what- you're sorry? it's bullshit!" millie said while standing up and getting in his face.
"no millie it's not bullshit—"
"no you. you're bullshit." she spat and walked away.
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i want to jump in a hole and suffocate right now.
someone please come to my house and stab me with a butter knife.
i love you guys!-
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