i fell in love with a person who did me wrong so many times
i kept coming back
like an abused puppy
thinking
maybe things will change, maybe he will love me more after he knows that i love him enough to forgive him
he kept hurting me more and more
soon, the puppy will realize that it needs to be scared of the treatment it receives
it will start distancing itself away from the only thing that it truly knows and loves
as did i
i started to push him away, getting tired of seeing the girls on his phone
tired of the broken promises
tired of him pushing my hugs away
it was the hurt, i was tired of the hurt
the puppy will keep its head down and flinch at the sight of hands. it will run away from affection without even knowing it.
the owner will get annoyed and angry
soon, the owner will not care
at first, my love was annoyed by the way i had started to push him away. that's all he was though - annoyed
he didn't try to give me the love that he knew i deserved and needed
then, i felt as if he got angry
he punished me for what i was feeling, he made me feel like the fall of us was entirely my fault
soon, he didn't care. he abandoned me without looking back
when this happens to a puppy, they become so sad
all it wanted was love
as you know, abused puppies will more often than not, turn aggressive and mad at the life it went through
instead of flinching at hands, it will bite them
instead of running away from affection, it will growl and bark at it
maybe that's why i love dogs so much
some aspects of them remind me of
me
