I swear everything I do is never enough. And this time it isn't going my way either.
I'm just so scared of myself, I tell myself all these toxic things.
I think I'm my own worst enemy.
What if everything is actually going right for once and I'm just overreacting like I do.
What if he wants me the same way?
I hope that's the case. I hope I'm not alone forever.
I've been working so fucking hard.
not just on school, but him, friendships, my mental health.
I feel as if I'm falling and nobody is there to catch me.
They all just want to see me fall.
I just need him to need me the same way.
And he said he wants me to be myself, little does he know that i'm literally a big ole ball of anxiety all the time, it's who I am.
"Be yourself"
I AM FUCK OFF
