Never thought i'd end up this way
Everything has changed while nothing changed at all
Some facts will go and some will stay
History repeats itself without me knowing untill I don't need to know anymore.
Because reality flies over my head
And I dont realise the hole it tore
Its all an illusion in my mind
All this confusion and realism, ive been blind
Nothing but something keeps me going
Does it exist, the thing I long
It feels like it doesnt matter what lifes showing
Im too simple for this life
Cant comprehend a simple thing
Cutting myself on every blunt edge of the knife
Cant feel the damage on my skin
Theres no possibility to win
Every time i have to spin
The wheel of chance
Has given me no luck or passage home
Im left outside to roam
A lonely person that has taken the wrong turn.
Invisible marks that burn
The skills I lack
I keep walking back
The warmth of safety keeping me enclosed
Keeping me from what I need the most
Everything that I once had and that kept me wanting to live
Its different from then.
Laughing has gone and been replaced by indifference
Different people, I'm asking myself when.
How was I so naive not to have seen
How it was and has been
Its all be so entoxicating and obscene
Stuck in the imaginary loop created by the anxiety Ive always had.
That has made me feel comfortable my whole life but kept the addiction fed
Nothings lasts forever
Everything has an end
It subsides into an absolute answer of never
Im incapacitated, lonely and have no real friend
I miss it
I miss the joy
I miss it
Being an innocent little boy
I miss the simplicity of existance
Having a simple life with no resistance
Now I'm stressed and overencumbered with the burden I've taken upon myself
Not rich in love neither in wealth
Love
Love
Love me
Please
Ive lost my course and im sailing into the void
Im too scared to ask you
Scared that there will be toyed
With me
Too scared it'll go wrong
Too scared to see
Im trapped in this cage created by the imagination of my own thoughts.
Nothing can go wrong but my head is telling me im caught
Ive lost the key and need help
Ive lost almost all of my hope and withdrawals knock on the door
I cant hold it anymore
Give me the power to go on and be persistent
Give me the will to be consistent
Let me be able to let the emotions go
And live a normal life
Im feeling the lights are low
But above all let me feel her grip and empowering love.
Give me the strength to be bold
Even if it goes above...
I just want to cry and have only her to hold
