Loud

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by galacticthoughts-

by galacticthoughts-

I hear
I hear the thoughts
They nab at my head day and night
The never ending torture

They are loud
I can't stop it.
I-I just want it to stop

You're gonna fail
You're stupid
You're ugly
Stop being you
You are nothing

I am nothing
I take up no atoms or oxygen
I don't deserve anything
And others know it

Crying or my violence won't help
The tears that stain my face
Don't help at all
I hate this feeling
The feeling of emptiness

The thought of you or anyone
Just makes me break down
I want you to care for me
But you made it clear you don't

The words I love you
Is what I tell you
I get your hateful words back
What have I done to make you hate me?

The thoughts of you come racing back
The tears start again
And the words
The words you said to me long ago
Are still present

I can't get rid of the thought of you
And I know you think of me
Even if I've made you hate
Ever bone in my body.