Quiet the noise

Liar

I thought i could
I let myself believe
Think I was strong
But I'm weak

Thinking about it hurts
I just couldn't do it
I promised you
And I'm going to break it

I honestly want to get better
I didn't lie about that
Maybe it wasn't a lie
At the time I said it

Now it's a flat out lie
Seeking out help
Is impossible for me
To even do

I wanna apologize
For any future pain
I might give you
Sorry

Sorry for being too weak
Sorry to being invisible
Or called a copycat
In my own house

I'm sorry that I'm a joke
I say I'm going to faint
And they laugh it off
Like I was kidding

I'm sorry if I fade
Fade away into the void
Never to be seen again
By anyone

I told you Im not well
I wasn't lying
But getting better
Just isn't possible

Maybe I'm being a teenager
Changing my mind too much
Or maybe I'm being realistic
That I will always be damaged