Cassidy
"No Cassidy, we need to talk"...
"Um, sure. Let's talk." I nodded looking down at arms and began readjusting my bracelets.
"Look at me." He said and I glanced up at him before looking back down refusing to make eye contact.
"Can you please drive?" I asked quietly refusing to make any visual contact with him. I knew he was disappointed. I had done something wrong.
"Stop!" He yelled slamming his fists on the steering wheel. He rested his head on the steering wheel and I heard him muttering some incoherent words. He was angry. And he was angry at me...
"Ashton..." I whispered reaching out and touching his arm but he pulled away quickly.
"Cassidy, please. Please don't do this to me." He begged looking at me through teary eyes.
"Tell me, Ashton!" I yelled. "Tell me what the hell I'm doing to you because I have no clue!"
"You don't understand, do you? It's everything you do Cassidy. I'm you're best friend and I go out of my way for you. I would take a bullet for you but you just don't realize what I do for you. And you're so impossible! I tell you to go in the diner and you completely ignore me and put yourself in harms way. I just can't take it anymore. You push me away when all I'm trying to do is be there for you." He yelled at me.
"Well maybe I don't want you to care. Why can't you just be like everyone else in my life. You just complicate everything!" I didn't yell. I just spoke loudly at him.
"Complicate what? The times you attempted to kill yourself? You know what Cassidy? You'll get you want. I'm done caring. I'm done going out of my way for you. So I hope you're fucking happy. I'm done." He said angrily and I refused to look at him now.
"Take me home." I said quietly looking out the window, as the tears left my eyes.
He started driving without a word. Soon the silence was filled by the familiar lyrics that held many memories for the both of us.
'When I look back on these neon lights,
The leather seats, the passage rite
I feel the heat, I see the light.
Miss Atomic Bomb
Making out, we've got the radio on
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.
Racing shadows in the moonlight
Through the desert on a hot night
And for a second there we'd won
Yeah we were innocent and young.-'
Ashton heaved a sigh and I knew he remembered how this song brought back the memories when we were happy. When things weren't so complicated between us.
Like the night we went to The Killers concert. Ashton loved them so I got tickets for his birthday. We stood in the crowd silent with only smiles on our faces. They were real genuine smiles too. Not the ones we masked to everyone. When this song played Ashton had grabbed my hand and we stayed hand in hand all night. It was one of the best days of his life. Mine too. And after that we even had-
I was cut off from my memories when the the car stopped infront in of my place.
"Get out." Ashton said harshly and I didn't respond. I just got out and slammed the door hard enough so he knew I was mad at him.
I know what he said was true but it wasn't entirely. I do try to listen to him. I love him and I know he's always here for me. I guess just not anymore. He was tired of me and just like the others he's giving up.
Ashton Fletcher Irwin, the boy made me realize there was purpose in breathing each day even through the pain, gave up on me. He promised he wouldn't but...
He did.
(A/N- *intense sobbing* Ugh. Cashton is tearing my emotions apart terribly. What did you guys think? WELL FORGET WHAT YOU THOUGHT CUZ GOOD GIRLS ARE BAD GIRLS THAT HAVEN'T BEEN CAUGHT! I had to... I apologize for my lameness. Anyways this, as ALWAYS, was for you Magitha. So anyone reading please VOTE, and please please please COMMENT. I want to know your opinions. Anyways thanks beatchos!)
*And for anyone that did'nt know, the song referenced was Miss Atomic Bomb by The Killers.*
