he started to cry. "look i love you. so much. i know things are hard. you've recovered once. remember when me and your brother helped you lie to your family and you got help? for seven fucking years you were doing amazing. you can do it again. i pro...
I've been a mess. Rikers been there for but I felt like nothing was going to get better. mason wasn't here to keep me going anymore. Me and him were so close. But he was gone.
Today I decided to take a walk. I got into this:
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And did my make up (primer, foundation, concealer, bronzer, powder, eye liner, mascara, lip gloss). I slid my phone into my pocket and blasted my music to the max volume.
I just walked and internally mourned on my brothers loss. I had a tattoo on my ankle with my brothers name on it in calligraphy. I had visited Selena and we were so happy to see each other. We cried and mourned together about his death but promised to be there for each other.
Someone tapped me on the shoulder. "Ugh what!?" I turn around and saw Riker. Oh shit. "Oh sorry I didn't know it was you" "Woah" He looked me up and down. "Do not be judgmental!" I exclaim. "No you look pretty. Are you okay? I've been calling you" He asks. "Uh..." I ask him. "Have you relapsed?" He pondered. "And why would you care?" "Hey, don't be rude. Im checking if you're okay!"" He lifted my sleeve up and saw the bleeding lines. "You didn't make my life any easier before hand" I folded my arms.
"What's wrong? Emma, talk to me" He asks. I scoffed. "Really? What's wrong? Oh I'll tell you! My brother is dead. I never got to say goodbye. My sister is in rehab and I never even knew she had depression and anxiety. My parents don't want to even know me! And oh my mental health? Is a fucking bitch!" I stopped as tears spilled down my cheeks.
"Hey" He wiped my tears gently. "I feel so alone Riker. Everythings going bad again..." I whisper as tears rolled down my cheeks. He wrapped his arms around me. "Hey" I looked up at him.
"I still love and care about you. We can work through this okay? If you're in, I'm in" "I am" I sniffled.
"We should probably go and get our kids from school" he says to me. I wiped my eyes and agreed. "We should" I looked away. He grabbed my hand. "Shall we?" He asks. "We shall"
"Mommy! Daddy!" Our two youngest children jumped at us and we both laughed with happiness. "Hey!" I picked Sapphire up in my arms. "I came first in the math game!" She smiled. "She's so smart!" Ryder added. They were so funny.
We made it back and saw Cole setting the table. "Aw your the best!" I went and hugged him. I didn't care if he was 12. He was mine. "How's Dad?" He asks me. "He's doing really well" I look toward him and saw him hugging Sapphire. I smiled and turn around. "Really well" I was so happy now. "Thanks to you" Cole added.
I was quite tired from all my crying today so I went to have a nap while Cole and the kids played Xbox. "Mind if I join you?" Riker walked in. "Don't mind at all" I smiled and made space for him. "Your beautiful" he mumbled, moving my hair away from my face. "So so beautiful" he murmured. "Stop" I giggled. "It's the truth" he shrugged.
We laid there talking, laughing, warm...it was a dream come true. After our lips touched I knew I was wrong. He was the one.
"Emma" he whispers as we pulled away. "I want you back
