he started to cry. "look i love you. so much. i know things are hard. you've recovered once. remember when me and your brother helped you lie to your family and you got help? for seven fucking years you were doing amazing. you can do it again. i pro...
Riker came back that evening and we talked. "I'm sorry for not respecting your boundaries and getting mad" He said. "Thank you for apologising" I replied. "Of course, I owe it to you"
He was improving.
"Riker, what happened to you?" "What?" "You get so arrogant about a lot of things" "I don't know...I hate it. I just get worried about being left so I tend to just leave people first or lash out. I wasn't like this before. After we broke up the first time I just started acting out" "I think you should discuss this with your therapist" "You're right" He sniffled. "Thank you for telling me"
Anyway. I'd written 4 songs for my EP including me and Brendon's duet (which is amazeballs). I was now writing one about heartbreak. I hadn't gotten that far. I knew the title. My Everything (pretend Emma wrote it)
I decided to go out for a bit. I got ready into this:
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I did my make up (primer, foundation, concealer, powder, bronzor, eye liner, mascara, lip stick, setting spray) and put my earphones in. I blasted my fall out boy playlist as I rode on my skateboard.
I sat down at a tree and had a little cry. I wanted to get better so bad and I had faith in Riker. But sometimes I think, whats the point?
We were fine our whole marriage. I understand his health declining then being manipulated with Cole. But the cheating? Then him lashing out on me the other day? I don't deserve it.
I got up eventually and headed home to play my piano.
"I've cried enough tears to see my own reflection in them And then it was clear I can't deny I really miss it To think that I was wrong I guess you don't know what you got 'til it's gone Pain is just a consequence of love I'm saying sorry for the sake of us
He wasn't my everything 'til we were nothing And it's taken me a lot to say And now that he's gone, my heart is missing something So it's time to push my pride away
'Cause you are, you are, you are my everything You are, you are, you are my everything
I know you're not far, but I still can't handle all the distance You're traveling with my heart I hope this is a temporary feeling 'Cause it's too much to bear without you When I lose sight, ain't lookin' If I go tomorrow, just know I'm yours 'Cause what we got is worth fighting for
'Cause you were, you were my everything 'til we were nothing And it's taken me a lot to say And now that you're gone, my heart is missing something So it's time to push my pride away
You are, you are, you are my everything You are, you are, you are my everything You are, you are, you are
You are, you are, you are my everything"
I started to cry. I just wanted this all to be easy.
"Emma?" I turn round. He's here. He came to me and held me in his arms. "Babe don't cry" I slowly look up at him as he wiped my tears. "i'm so exhausted. i want this to work so bad" i sobbed. "me too emma. i promise we'll be okay"
"You guys are too cute" we screamed and saw Rydel. "What are you doing?" Riker asked her, stressfully. He didn't let go though. "I came to tell you guys that Courtney's in hospital. She fell pregnant again and didn't tell Ross" she says. "Emma she needs you. She can't do this alone. Ross still doesn't know even though she's in labour"
fuck.
I wiped my eyes and we headed to the car. We made it to the hospital to see Courtney crying. "Hey boo!" I ran and hugged her. "Lets have a baby" I held her hand, Rydel held her other one.
Courtney gave birth to Emily Del Lynch two hours later. Me and Rydel were touched that she was named after us. Courtney was crying a lot as she was scared to shit. The four of us comforted her and promised to help her and be there for her.
We got into the Rourtney house and Ross had just put their youngest child to sleep. Second youngest. He turned around and saw us. "W-who's kid is that!?" He looked so shocked when he saw the baby. "O-ours" Courtney stammered. "What!?" Holy shit. I took Em from her arms. Riker held me close. This was going to be sone scary shit.
They had an argument and it ended with Courtney crying. Me and Riker took her to our house to spend the night. We found a Moses basket for Em to sleep in. I leant Courtney my pyjamas and stuff and they both went to sleep. mason came home with my three youngest kids who had had a fun day after school with him.
I put them all to sleep and went to my room. Riker was in his pyjamas. I took my make up off and got into mine. Not really. I just took off my jeans as I was lazy as fuck and kept my boxers on. Well they weren't mine. They're Rikers.
"Can we talk?" He asked me. "That's the only thing we do"
