It's complicated: Levi x Petra Lemon

Chapter 19: Silence

Petra wearily opened her eyes viewing the world with a large intake of breath as she rose up coughing and spluttering. Levi's eyes dialated with worry slapping behind her back until she shook her head and covered her mouth shyly with a faint primrose coloring her cheeks.

"I'm okay Levi" she croaked
Her eyes glistened from the middle as though she was holding back tears but stubbornly refused to cry.

"I was so worried Petra"

Petra said nothing as silence broke out in the room slowly bowing her head to focus on the cracked tiles within the floor. She knew what she had done and she had let it escalate. It was her fault that she had been lured into a false sense of security and as a result had such a close proximity to another man. She had been enveloped into a warm embrace without pushing herself away. Perhaps that was the worst thing of it.

Levi hadn't seen what had gradually built up over drinks. The sizzling sexual tension and frustration built up at how she had been treat and how she just wanted someone to make her feel wanted again. Pain seared through her chest, burning and absorbing her ability to feel. Twisting and turning like a knife to make her realize the pathetic behavior of herself and consumed guilt overriding her sense of morale as tears flooded her vision.

"Petra?"

She could hear the concern etched into his voice as bile rose to her throat unable to say anything for the fear of what may come out. Holding her hands together, she peeled the skin off her thumbnail trying to subject the pain onto her self with the hope of wanting to feel something. Anything vaguely normal.

"Petra?" Levi repeated again taking her hand into his and rubbing it slowly.

Petra tore her eyes away from the floor to look at him and saw what she had most feared. The lack of care towards himself through his unshaven stubble and how his hair was in a disarray. The realization on how much he needed her to function was enough to make her burst into tears. She couldn't do it to him.

She broke down like a damn bursting violently causing gushes of water to pour down her face. Loud painful sobs as Levi held her tightly enveloping her in his warm embrace and she felt herself relax for the first time. All the tension being relieved from her shoulders as she slumped into him slowly.

"I love you so much Petra. I don't want to let you go and I'm sorry for being a dick. I really am. I just get so scared of losing you"

"I'm sorry Levi I-I have him the wrong idea I was so upset"

Levi straightened up slightly arching an eyebrow.

"What do you mean?"

Petra pulled herself away slumping back onto the bedside and sighed incoherently

"I gave him the wrong idea" She paused as Levi addressed her up and down.

"The wrong idea?"

"Yeah. I was upset and I wasn't flirting but I was tipsy well drunk and" she held her head as the words shot out of her mouth before her face reddened with shame.

"So..what you're saying is you got drunk with him" Levi's voice had now changed into an unfamiliar tone: chilling to make Petra's skin crawl.

"No because he was the barman Levi" her voice rose precariously. Levi stood up and shut the door leaving her to feel all the more exposed. He heaved himself back onto the chair and placed his feet on the edge of her bedside.

"Are you going to say anything then?"

The silence was unbearable. Truly awkward. The room was prickled with tension like a needle jabbing into Petra's skin.

"What is there to say" he muttered sullenly

"How about asking for my point of view"

Levi groaned scratching his stubble. "Fine then. What's your point of view Pet-ra"

"Say my fucking name right you're not a juvenile" she hissed

"Petra. Now answer the fucking question"

"Alright. Well I was upset because you were a dick about the bikini"

"I-" Levi started

"Did I say I was finished" she glared at him crossing her arms

"Whatever continue" he rose his arms in defeat motioning her to continue

" you were a dick about the bikini so I was right to be upset. So I went down to the beach bar where this guy was serving. He saw I was looking down and tried to ask but I wouldn't tell him so instead he offered me drinks. The way I was feeling I accepted it and it turned into about five or six which wasn't anticipated but well I wasn't feeling particularly great. Anyway it got to the middle of the night when he started getting flirty to which I didn't respond until he said my boyfriend should treat me better. I then started crying and he held me similar to what you did and I pulled away soon after. It was just nice to have someone to comfort me. But it wasn't anything more than that. It was then when he said if i wanted to go somewhere and I wasn't in the state of mind to say no because I barely knew where I was. Anyway that's when he came on to me and I fought against it...did..he..you know..rape...me?" Her voice was now a hushed whisper

"No I got to you in time so he didn't" he replied gruffly. "So you're certain it wasn't both ways. You didn't want him?" Levi pressed

"Of course I don't want him and I didn't because even in my state I was thinking about you because I love you Levi and the only man I want in my life is you. I got so upset ..I thought I'd lost you"

"Petra you're a fucking idiot but I love you too and I couldn't leave. You know how much this has killed me. Sitting here and you being unresponsive? It's the most quiet you've ever been" he smirked chuckling slightly

"Heyyy" she protested elbowing him. Levi pretended to be wounded recoiling backwards before pulling Petra of the bed onto his knee.

"Ahhh Levi"

"Shhhh quiet it's nice to have some peace don't ruin it"

She jabbed him again leaning forward back onto the bed but Levi was too strong and grabbed her hips yanking her back down.

"Now now. Don't be escaping me"

"what's the nurse going to say though?" She raises her eyebrows.

"Do I care?" He stated petulantly

Petra giggled but then stopped when she felt a pain in her chest.

"It's nice hearing you giggle" he wrapped his arms around her waist tightly

"Yeah but it hurts a lot" she sighed laying her head back on his shoulders.

Levi rested contentedly allowing his eyes to have a brief rest.

Petra interrupted breaking him out of his nap

"Levi?"

He wiped his eyes and yawned squinting "nm yeah?"

"Is summer over now?"

"Yeah it's autumn cause you got put into an induced coma so we're back home because you were airlifted"

"So the survey corps is literally there?"

Levi grinned pinching her cheeks and kissed her nose.

"Yeah it is"

"Can I go home"

"Soon"