In search for the origins

Part 21

May

Charles looked at me in shock, clearly not believing what I had just said... I knew it was risky and not a wise thing to do,but what else could I do? if there was another way to go out of the mess everyone had put us in, I didn't see it.

-I will pretend I haven't heard you, May. I do appreciate both you and Andy, but you can't ask me for such a thing. Ask me whatever you want, and I'll do it willingly. But not that.

-Then what can we do, Charles? Nothing? - I was really growin in despair and rage. Who could we trust to?

-I'll be true...right now I don't see a way to solve this, but running away is the worst option you could think of. You aren't even sixteen, holy God! Don't ruin your life that way!

-If someone has ruined my life and Andy's, is hasn't been us. 

-Never mind, May...anyway, I think I should be leaving by now.

Charles's voice sounded quite dissapointed and sad, and for a moment I felt terribly guilty. He was one of the few that hadn't lied to us, and I did appreciate him too. But all I was asking for was help, surely he knew something in Billings that could guide us to Canada.

-Hey, what's going on? We heard you argue...

-May, she's totally nuts. Try to put some sense in her head, Andy. I would like to stay longer, but do have a plane to catch. I hope we'll keep in touch...good luck, anyway.

-Now? I thought it was this evening...

-No, it's in two hours, in fact.

I looked at Andy, and maybe for the first time in my life, I didn't know what he was thinking. Since I was a little girl, I did read in him like in an open book, he's never been able to hide what he felt, or thought...but right then, he was so puzzled that his expression seemed a game face. 

-I will drive you to the airport, Charles...

-Right...thanks, Sue. 

When Sue and Charles left,  Andy finally asked me about my argument with Charles.

-So? Will you tell me what happened?  I don't believe a word about Charles's plane being so early..

-I asked him for help...It was a foolish idea I had, that's all.  I wanted to know if he knew something that could help us go to Canada. Not through the border, that is...

-What? No wonder he left such in a hurry...you're nuts, May!

He pretended being angry, but I could see he didn't reject my idea at all, so I decided to go a little further with it.

-Might be, but I don't see another solution. If you do, tell me ok?

I stormed out of the living room and went to the one I shared with Becky. She was doing some of her school homework, and asked me for help. Maths. I've always been quite good at, so I sat by her...

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I couldn't but think of what May had said. Yeah, it sounded foolish and risky and whatever, but she was right in one thing. At plain sight, there wasn't another solution. And well, to be true, I had told something similar to Sue , only that it didn't mean moving to another country.  That was what scared me the most...going to New York, or Pennsylvania, or wherever, wasn't such a change as Canada. And yet...I didn't intend to forget about that possibility...though I knew it would take a lot of time to get things ready. In case we did it, it would have to wait until school was over, and it would surely mean May staying with the Stevens for a month and a half, or so...and behaving as good as she could. That would be really hard...she's always been so stubborn! And then there was Sue...I know, she had told me  "  Wherever you go, I will go too. To hell itself, if need comes." But, what if need meant leaving everything behind, would she still think the same?  And her folks...thet surely wouldn't be that happy with the idea...

With a sigh, and my mind miles away from there, I went to my room...there was a Biology exam soon and I hadn't studied at all...I would have to concentrate on it...