Forgive Me??? (Complete)

The Worst Day Of My Life: Prolouge

DISCLAIMER: I own nothing!!!! also this is rated PG 13 for cussing and mature content....read at your own risk!!! Music is not mine!!!

Jace POV

    Clary and I have been married for three years already. We have two beautiful little girls. Celine, my oldest girl with golden curls and a mixture of golden green eyes. She is so beautiful. She is a perfect mixture of both me and Clary. Celine is a year and a half already. We had Jocelyn five months ago. She has red hair and golden eyes. They are both one of the best things that ever happened to me. Clary is lying on top of my bare chest. she still looks like the angel she did five years ago when I met her. Now she's 21 and I'm 22. I feel a tap on my shoulder. I look up to see the person who tapped my shoulder. I lay Clary on the bed next to me so I don't wake her up as I get up. I put on a shirt and walk out of the room where he was waiting for me, Johan. I look to my right and see him leaning on the wall. He turns around to look at me. "What the hell do you want....and what the hell are you doing here?!" I ask him. Johan Isn't a nice person. He's broken the accords hundreds of times, but there's never enough evidence to prosecute him. Johan simply grins at me.

"Oh stop being so dramatic....I only want you to divorce your wife.....and tell her you want nothing to do with her or your children" He says simply. The thing about Johan is that he knows how to corner you, how to make you do whatever he wants you to do. My eyes widen and my heart drops.

"No" I growl. "Hell no!" I say my voice rising into a slight yell.

"Then I'll  kill you" Johan says. I scoff at his lack of effort to make me want to hurt my family.

" I don't care.....I would rather die than tell my family that Bullshit!" I hiss.

"The catch is Jonathan Herondale...." He trails off. "Your death will look like a suicide" He finally says after about a minute of dramatic pause. "With a believable note stating you were so unhappy with your life you decided to end it" He grinned. He looked like a demon from a horror movie. I remember how much it hurt knowing my mother had committed suicide with me still in her womb.....but that wasn't my fault.....this will kill Clary emotionally....Celine and Jocelyn need a well functioning mother...out of all the choices I've made, questions I've been asked, tests i've had...this is definitely the most difficult.... then an Idea pops into my head.

"Why don't we make a deal?" I ask. Johan is a warlock. All warlocks love making deals. Johan looks intrigued.

"What are you suggesting?" He asked.

"I will do what you ask of me.....but you will never bother any person that is a part of the Herondale family, from this day foreword" I propose.

"So...you,your mate, your offsprings and their mates?" He asks. I nod slowly.

"And give them protection" I add.

"That seems a lot for only one hopeless tear" he mumbles . "You know you can get back together after I get her tear.....right?" Johan asks. I glare at him. Johan rolls his eyes. "Deal" he snaps his fingers and a contract pops into existence. he pops into existence. I read it over just to make sure everything is there and sign it. Johan grins like a maniac again. I just hope in the end this is all worth it. Johan gives me the Claves divorce papers. It had a clump of red Clay at the right bottom corner of the paper. You would need an engraved family ring. Like Clary's wedding ring. It's a golden ring with a diamond that has a C and an H engraved in it, you can barley see it, but it's there.Johan then disappears. I sigh. The door to my bedroom opens. Clary comes out of the room. she looked giddy with happiness....this is going to hurt.

"Hey...I kinda need to talk to you" She says cheerily . She looks so happy. This is going to crush me.

"Yeah....me too" I say I try to steady my voice so I make this believable.....somehow Clary doesn't notice, she usually always notices when something is wrong. She starts to open her mouth to say something, but I interrupt her. "Clary...." She looks up at me, naive at what is about to happen. "I.....I'm divorcing you" I manage to spit out. I see her face change. At first it showed happiness, from whatever she was going to tell me. Then it slowly turned into a mixture of disbelief and shock. And then, her face molded into an expression of Heartbreak, pain and sadness.

"What?" She huffs out ....I can barley hear her since she was so out of breath. I see tears in her eyes. I bite my cheeks and clench my hands to keep going.

"I don't want anything to do with you....or Celine and Jocelyn" I mumble, It came out more like angrowl due to the pain of biting my inner cheek. Clary looks at the floor.

"Why?" She asks. "Did I do something......did you do something...Jace we can fix this ok?" She assures me. Even while I shatter her heart, she is still the most selfless woman I have ever met. I shake my head and show her the divorce papers that I had signed.

"Just sign" I whisper. A tear rolls down her cheek, that tear almost broke me. I wanted to hug her and kiss her, but I didn't. she wipes the tear away as if it were acid.

"No" she says shockingly confident, she looks up at me with determination. "We have gone through so much....I am not letting you go"

"Just Fucking sign it Clary" I say coldly my voice almost cracking in the end. I couldn't handle her stubbornness right now, she would convince me not to do this. But I have to. She shakes her head.

"What about Celine.....and Jocelyn.....What about them???" she asks in pain. I shake my head.

"I told you I want nothing to do with them.....or you" I spit out. she looks betrayed and heart broken.

"What am I supposed to tell them?" she asks half sobbing half trying to stop. "When they are older....and they ask why they don't have a father?" She asks.

"Thats your problem...." I mumble. "Give me the ring Clary" I finally say. she shakes her head.

"No Jace....please think this through...." She begs. I take the ring off her finger and stomp it on the paper. Clary falls to the floor Crying right as the diamond lets go of the clay. I quickly walk away, not being able to bear the sight of Clary heartbroken. When I finally turn the corner my cheek feels wet. I touch it. Another tear falls down my cheek. This is the first time I have cried since I was ten....since my father killed the falcon and told me that to love was to destroy and to be loved is to be destroyed.

Clary's POV

Why was I so stupid?!.....I can't believe I am having another child and Jace doesn't even Care. I feel another tear escape.....but then it disappeared before it hit the floor. I didn't think much of it. I know I shouldn't have cried and tried to keep some of my dignity.....but dignity was the last thing on my mind. I turn around and go to Celine and Jocelyn's Room. I pack all our stuff and leave the institute.....If I have to raise them alone then I will.....But I can't stay here. It will hurt too much.