Forgive Me??? (Complete)

Jace, Cely and Mangoe ice

DISCLAIMER: I OWN NOTHING ALSO THIS MIGHT BE TRIGGERING READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!!!

JACE POV

Me and Cely walk to central park. We're both deglamorized. We pass by an ice cream stand. "Wait!" The mundie vendor says. Me and Cely look at him. "Would you like to buy some ice cream....we have strawberry,Vanilla,Chocalete....Oh... Lemon?" He says. He has a slight french accent.
"What do you want?" I ask. She smiles shyly.
"Do you have mangoe?" She asks. I instantly grin.
"Oh but of course" He says. Cely turns to me.
"I'll have one too" I said. The man smiles and gives us two Mangoe cones. We start walking down the track. Cely starts licking her ice cream.
"You know, you could have picked a diffrent flavour....you didn't have to choose mangoe" She says.
"Neither did you" I tell her.
"I love mangoes......Mom says i'm obssesed....But i have always loved mangoes....i don't know why" She says and keeps licking her ice cream.
"Well you didn't get that from your mother" I tell her. she frowns and looks at me. "The mangoe obsession comes from me......now before that i have no idea" I say. Cely smiles. "So.....tell me more about your life in london" I say. She shrugs.
"Eh....London is over rated" She says. (No offense to anyone who loves in london....or anyone else!!!!) I laugh.
"Seriously tell me" I say.
"If you want i can tell you my moms life" She says. She's stalling......why? I smile at her.
"Cely....if i wanted to know more about your mothers life i would have asked her...not you........doubt she would tell me the truth.....or an answer......now please tell me about your life" I plead. Cely sighs.
     "Alright....I don't know exactly what happened when I was a baby, but mom told me what happened." She says. I look at her face. She looks at her ice cream. "Just, Don't treat me differently" She tells me. "Don't treat me like I'm some lame,stupid girl, or like a lost, or kicked puppy" she says.
     "Cely your my daughter.....I will always love you, I have since you where born....Besides your my daughter, your not a lost or kicked puppy, or lame, and obviously not stupid" I say arrogantly looking at the track in front of me. She breathes and smiles.
      "That's what I am worried about." She says. I look at her. "When my Mom left she went to Washington DC.... She didn't have time to cry or be angry for you. She took care of us....when she was ready to give birth she came back to New York, she wanted all her children to be born in the same place. She even Came to the institute's Infirmary, In DC she had taken a corse in giving birth and how to take care of a baby, She also had some help by some shadowhunter," She says. I look at her puzzled.
    "She was here?" I ask. Cely nods.
   "She put a block on herself and since you had nothing mine or of Joe she didn't have to worry about us. She had locked the infirmary and put a sound proof rune." She says. "Anyways,after Alec and Jace where born she left to London, That shadowhunter I told you about,he died by demon attack" She says "Mom didn't want to stay in the institute so she lived by herself as a mundane, she put us all in a daycare and got an apartment,She drowned herself in debt, At one point she worked 6 jobs" She says. Cely looks at me and shrugs. Telling me 'Angel knows how she did that'. "We didn't have money so we would sleep in one bed, I remember mom would fall asleep hugging us all. Eventually i was ready to go to kindergarten, Mom relived she had been so busy she missed so much of our lives. She stopped daycare and had us in the apartment, which cleared a lot of debt, Then mom started teaching us about the shadow world, eventually she got us on a schedule,She was the best mom in the world, she wasn't perfect. But she was for me" she says. My heart does a weird thing, it break yet flutters, it aches yet shatters, it longs yet it's happy. "I had friends in school, especially one, her name was Courtney," She says. "My friends had stopped being friends with me and I only had Courtney. I told Courtney everything, I told her about you, about how my sister was so bold, how Alec was smart yet an idiot at the same time, How Jace was a stupid blond idiot that had a sense of humor. I wanted so badly to tell her I was a shadowhunter...But Mom told me I couldn't. We even had a fight about it." She sighs. "Ohhhh The irony" she laughs coldly. "The next day she spilled all my secret, everyone treated me horribly, I obviously didn't tell my mom because I thought she would say 'what did I tell you Cely'" we sit down on a bench because Cely looks like she's about to cry her eyes where wet with tears. She breathed in and out. "People would tell me daily how pathetic I was and how I should just cut myself because I wasn't worth anything" She says "Eventually I got over it" She says. "Courtney would keep bullying every day, some days she would add in some I should kill my selves. But I got used to those too, they would do random things in my locker and embarrass me, in PE they would cut my clothes and things like that." She says. I open my mouth then close it when she keeps talking. "But, one day, which was three days ago. I was walking home, and Courtney's group, and herself. They came up to me, they pushed me on the ground, and they said." She gets cut off by a tear rolling down her cheek. She wiped it off. "They asked why I was still here, on earth, alive, because My dad didn't even want me, so why would anyone else" She says. I feel guilt and heartache. 'This was my fault' my conscious thinks. "That was normal crap they would say, so I stood up from the mud....Then they said I should just do everyone a favor and kill myself because it was my fault, my fault you left mom, and that it was my fault mom was never going to be happy," a sob escapes her. She cry's. I throw my cone away, she just stays there, she doesn't lean in to me, i pull her towards me and she cry's in my chest. "I-I-I'm So s-Sorry" she sobs. I hug her tighter.
    "Don't be, I still love you, I always will. Angel I'm sorry, if it weren't for me you wouldn't have gone through that" I hug her even tighter.
   "It's not your fault, I forgive you" She says. I hug her even tighter and kiss her blonde hair.
   "I will never leave you" I tell her. We stay like that, Cely in my arms, until it's dark outside.