My Hope

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"I do now. Knowing he really loves me. For who I am." She smiled.

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I miss him.

So much.

For what Jin said earlier. I'm still confused. Why would mother call Seokjin and not any of the members of the band BTS? I'm curious. So, curios.

Is she trying to make Seokjin and I connect, to finally get over of Hoseok?

Well it won't happen. Not ever. I love Hoseok. And I won't let my feelings slipped on Seokjin's trap.

I know Jin is such a good guy. He always makes me laugh whenever he makes lame jokes. He would take me that fast. He's not a guy who take everything he wants right?

The first time someone kissed me other than Hoseok. Every time I see Jin, I can't help but remember what he did to me.

I know he was sorry, but he kissed me. It was also the day Hoseok died. He was killed for all I know.

That day was also the day my mom almost died.

I want to die that time. And I still want to end my life.

It's too much for me.

I need to end this pain. I want it to end.

I want everything in my mind to be gone.

I want Hoseok, I want to be with him. I want him by my side. I want him. I want him right now.

I closed my eyes, images started to flash before my eyes. The memories that I never want to forget. The memories we build together. He made me, he made Y/n strong. He made me whole, complete.

He loves me. Right?

Did he really love me?

Was Jin telling the truth to make me feel better?

Is it really the thing Hoseok said?

Am I really the girl he was talking about?

Am I even real...?

Am I still alive?

Or just breathing?

Do I really deserve this?

Did Hoseok really called me?

Did he ever love me for who I am?

Does love really exist?

Am I really human?

Is this all a dream?