I'm homesick for arms that don't want to hold me.. You are a piece of me i wish I didn't need.
I know it's impossible for us to be..
I know you don't know me..
I know there's million miles between us..
I know even if we met I won't be anything special..
I know you won't ever develop any feelings for me.. i know.
I know all of that yet can't accept it. Just thinking about accepting this fact kills me. It's like stabbing countless knives in my heart all at once.
Oh God, how much i wish you know what i feel for you.
How much my soul craves you.. your existence, your eyes, your smile, your scent, your hair, your dimples.. your every single thing.
I crave for you. I crave to be the one your soul craves for..
I don't want blankets.. i just want your arms around me and it'd be enough.
Sometimes i sit, think and just wonder will i ever be able to get over you completely?
Then i just laugh at my silliness..
I can't even get you out of my mind when i'm super busy even when i'm sleeping i keep dreaming of you then i just come to realisation that i am only wondering because I really do wish to get over you completely..
Cause somehow i always knew i won't be good enough for you.. because i'm terrified of what i loved the most.. which is you.
Your eyes are like oceans and I'm drowning.
I love you knowing I shouldn't. What a mistake, right?...
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Midnight Thoughts
No FicciónTbh i can write description but we all have this "overthinking" period that comes after midnight..Most nights i cry myself to sleep and keep overthinking. These are just some of my thoughts. Some are cheerful and some are depressing.. some are good...
