He didn't realize.. he didn't know that he was slowly killing her, that he was slowly making her look double her age because of sadness, that he was breaking her heart.. just because she has always stayed silent and she didn't say a word.. unfortunately, he didn't know that he was teaching her how to hate him, how to feel happy when he dies or leave her, how to be independent and strong without him, how to face her depression with a huge smile and say to her depression "no, not again, I won't let you in" while she is really depressed but she was too strong to deny it even to herself..
He didn't know that she stayed silent but she won't be silent forever.. he didn't know that he was the very first one to broke her heart while he was the one who should make her the happiest in the world..
She was hurt but stayed silent like she was absolutely fine and perfect..
She faced the world everyday with a beautiful, hopeful smile but deep inside her and at night in her room she can't face herself with the same smile..
She was living everyday feeling afraid that this smile like fade away one day and turn into baggy eyes or depressed face..
Even when she was alone in her room she refused to cry.. she refused to be weak even in front of herself..
She loves to see people happy and achieving their dreams because she knows very well how hard it feels to not be happy and not to achieve your dreams.. she was always saying to herself that she is strong and she will always keep saying it..!
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Midnight Thoughts
NonfiksiTbh i can write description but we all have this "overthinking" period that comes after midnight..Most nights i cry myself to sleep and keep overthinking. These are just some of my thoughts. Some are cheerful and some are depressing.. some are good...
