Bitter | g.d - e.d

8 [Leila]

"Please don't do this!" He looks at me with a huge grin, "Come one Leila, you and I both know that you deserve this. Don't try to play innocent!"

I try to push him off within my the little strength that i have but fail. He's too strong. He rips my shirt and drags me to the wall.

I'm screaming. Screaming for someone to take me away from this shit. He's right though... NO, I can't let this get to me!

"You know that you will"

NO I don't deserve this!

"Stop lying to yourself, stop lying to everyone, you know that you are useless."

I don't deserve this, I haven't done anything to deserve this.

"Hehe, you know that's a lie. Your a heartless, attention seeking bitch who thinks her life isn't good enough."

NO!

YES!

He grabs me by the neck and jolts me towards him without another word and smashed his lips onto mine.

I'm pleading. I'm pleading for him to stop. But he doesn't listen. He doesn't stop as i hear others screaming. He still doesn't stop when a figure is approaching. He doesn't stop until he's done. And he leaves when I'm lying on the hard ground with ripped clothes and a no longer existing dignity.

The figure runs to me but the voice is muffled as i slip away...

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"LEILA!"

I'm jolted awake by a pair of strong hands,

Tate . My older brother.

"Leila what the fuck are you doing?" He asked harshly. I replied with a scowl. "It looked like you were having a seizure or some shit!" He said while laughing.
"Why the fuck were you watching me sleep creep?" He shrugged obnoxiously. Then he bent down to whisper, "You kept moaning the name Grayson by the way." He pulled a strand of my hair damn hard.

"OW what the fuck Tate?" I yelled, and he just snickered and ran out of my room, knocking over a chair in the process.

That is our relationship. He pisses me off with joy, I react, and he runs off. We are damn close. *cough...noope..cough*

I dragged myself out of the safety of my blankets and went to have a shower. I thought about my dream, like what the actual fuck was that about? What's Grayson got to do with this?!
Like usual, there was no hot water. Cause my family can't be fucked to pay the damn bill.

I put on a plain red crop tee and a faux leather skirt. I pulled on some black chunky heeled boots to complete my outfit. I brushed out my hair and put it in a ponytail. Done, now makeup and then school time, yippe...

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I walked down stairs to the kitchen to find my brother already gone thank gosh. I grabbed my backpack and keys from the counter and headed over to Violets house. She's seemed kinda pissed after what happened with Jasper at Starbucks. I dont know why it offended her so much but i gave her space because i knew that she wanted it.

I knocked on her door and she answered almost immediately. The bags underneath her eye told me she had no sleep.

"Hey V, no sleep?" I asked while she locked the door behind her,
"Nope, my dad took my pills again..." she replied simply.

We walked in silence for a little bit. Then she put her arm around me and played with a strand of my hair,
"Do you ever think about Grayson?" She asked suddenly, which shocked me, "No why would I, he's nothing special to me." She nodded with a weird look on her face. Her question made me wonder about what her answer would be if i had asked her about Ethan. Maybe what Jasper said wasn't completely untrue.