Bitter | g.d - e.d

15 [Violet]

Violets POV

I tried so hard to be nice to him, but every time I give him a smile he'd ignore it or spit nasty words at me.. I don't know how to stop him. I need to stop him before someone else does, and I really hope that Ethan listens to me.

Once I got home, I worked on school work but gave up halfway and instead, I plunge onto my bed, pulling the extra blankets halfway up my body. I pull out my phone and ring Leila a few times but she doesn't answer.

Me
Hello? Can we talk?
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Leila
Sorry. I can't rn

Me
Oh, okay.

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'That's so weird' I thought, she always picks up. Her mum is probably home, I shrug it off.

Me
Hey, r u there?
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Ethan
You okay?

Me
I don't know..

Me
Can we call?

Ethan
No I'm sorry :/

Me
Oh okay, it's fine

Ethan
We can text though

Ethan
Hello?
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Ethan
Come on V please don't
leave me on read!
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Ethan tried to call you!

2 missed calls from Ethan!

3 missed calls from Ethan!

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7 missed calls from Ethan!

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I sigh, throwing my phone away, does Ethan have work today? Maybe, probably not, I don't know, I shouldn't be overthinking this, they're probably just busy. But the fact that they actually even thought of reporting my father, my own father is driving me crazy. Why the hell would they even think that. Like yes he's done things but- no just, no.

My eyes wander around the room, looking at the many things I've collected throughout my life. My eyes finally make it back around to my nightstand, where my beloved sleeping pills are placed, I'm guessing my dad gave them back.

'See, he does care! He's not all that bad!"

Who the hell cares, I can't all of a sudden take my dads side, no one can hear me, no one is willing to listen to me until they finally realise that something is wrong. I never thought I'd ever be this way, and I never thought I would end this way. I just want to disappear but for some strange reason there's just something holding me back.

Ethan..

His name floated around in the back of my mind and I don't know what to do.

"Let's call it a night." I thought. I set my alarm for the next day and play my night time playlist that mainly consists of instrumentals -piano covers to be more specific-

I downed a handful of pills to shut off my brain for the night before drifting slowly into a deep sleep with zero dreams. Just darkness. It was a little soothing though. Just me and nothing else to give me anxiety.