Bitter | g.d - e.d

6 [Leila]

Leilas POV

Oh fuck. I knew it was stupid to tell him. Why did i break? Ive held myself together for so long, but i just threw it all away because of one stupid boy who 'cared'. As if he did! He was just curious. Curious as to what Miss Popular has to hide. Violet. I'm going to lose her... My best friend in the world. Is gonna leave, like everyone else. I cant let this happen. I cant lose another person who i care about. Not after last time...

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It was awkward between me and Violet at lunch. God i hate this! I need to fix what I've done. But i didn't do anything, just sat and didn't eat like usual. Clay harassing me while i stare into another universe i cant reach. One where I'm normal. Where i am healthy and happy 24/7. A place where Violet and i can be our true selves. Without all the makeup and bitchiness. I wish with all my heart that I could get there. But alas, i cannot. Because that would be a good thing, when my life is nothing but bad things.

We had English next. A class i have with Violet, urghhh and Grayson. I guess ill ignore him.

I walked into class alone, scowled at the teacher as she nodded at me. To which she replied with a roll of her eyes. I sat next to Grayson cautiously as he stared me down. I felt self conscious as he looked at me trying to get my attention. My outfit was kinda revealing, but i usually felt perfectly comfortable. I turned to him, "Okay, Gracie. Just because i told you some shit about me doesnt mean we are best friends now, and it doesn't change a thing between us ok." He raised his eyebrows,
"Well if it doesn't change anything then why did you even tell me in the first place? And my name is Grayson." I scowled at him,
"Well obviously i was in a fragile state, and i probably would've told anyone that came to help..." He rolled his eyes and shook his head,
"What did i ever do to you Leila that makes you hate me so much? I'm not gonna tell anyone about your problems so can you please talk to me like a normal person?" I crossed my arms over my chest and turned away from him. I saw Violet looking uncomfortable with Ethan trying to talk to her about something. I heard a grunt noise and turned to see Clay watching Violet and Ethan. He scowled and caught my eye, and winked. Urrghhh hes fucking creepy!

"Alright class enough chit chat. Time to get some real work done. I'm assigning all of you into groups of three for a new project. I will read the groups out now and i don't really give a shit if you hate your groups so shut up and deal with it. Okay..."

The whole class went silent waiting for their group,

"Okaaayyyy, first group, Emily, Hanna and Caleb." I heard a bunch of groans coming from the row in front of me,

"Second group, Alec, Isabelle and Harry." More groans, and the girl on the other side of Grayson facepalmed. I guess no one is gonna be happy with their groups,

"Ummm, Third group is Ethan, Violet annnnd Clay." Holy fucking shit! I looked over to Violet and she was looking kinda scared. I don't blame her cause shes gonna be with two guys fighting for her and thats fucking hard because Clay is a strong AF jock and Ethan's a nerd. Ethan obviously likes Violet and I'm sure she would prefer him over Clay because he's a jerk. I feel really selfish because I'm not with him and Violet has to get through it by herself. I wish i could be in their group to protect her from Clays antics. But i will talk to Ethan alone.

"Fourth group is Dean, Cassie and Sam." There were cheers so i guess those three are friends, lucky them.

The rest of the groups were called out and i didn't hear my name and there were not many people left. I hope my group is boring so i can get this done without conflict.

"And the last group issss, Jasper, Leila.... and Grayson." FUCK MY LIFE!

Of all fucking people it HAD to be the person that i was avoiding! I swerved around to face him next to me and he was already looking at me with a shy smile. Jasper was sitting two rows in front of me and he swivelled around to look at me and winked. I smirked back but I couldn't get over the fact that i have to work with Grayson. This is going to be a long project...

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The bell rang for recess and i bolted out the door. I walked to the back of the school where I was when Grayson saw me. I got on my knees and pulled out the loose brick in the wall that's covered in moss or some plant. Behind it is my packet of cigarettes and lighter. I really need them right now. I fished my phone out of my pocket and opened it with Violets name. Then I called her and she answered on the 3rd ring,

"Hey Leila, are you ok? Do you need help? Pain

"No it's nothing like that, but thank you for asking. I just need you."

"Oh Leila I need you too! I haven't coped as well without you!"

"I'm behind the school. Meet me there?"

"On my way."

I took a deep breath of relief. Violet and I are back on good terms. About 10 minutes later Violet turned the corner to our secret meeting spot. I smiled at her as she sat down next to me and hugged me. We stayed like that for a while the she broke the silence, "I'm going to be in a room with Clay Perkins and Ethan Dolan..." she looked at me with fear in her eyes, "I know, I'm so sorry V. You don't deserve this at all."

She smiled weakly, "I kinda do though..." i knew how she felt, like I deserve all the bad things that happen. But I'm a bigger fuckup then Violet, at least she has a dream for her future life. One that she could very well achieve. She eyed the cigarette in my hand and she looked sad,

"I have to V, it helps me." She nodded knowingly, "I get it Leila, but you have to stop soon."

"I can't!" I took another drag and blew out the smoke slowly. She took my hand in hers and she grabbed an apple out of her bag and handed it to me, "Eat this, you need some nutrients."

I nodded, and smiled sadly. She was right. I took them fruit from her hand and i shoved it in my bag for later.

Two figures approached us from the side and I squinted to see who it was. OMFG Ethan and fucking Grayson. Can't they move the fuck on. I started to get up and sort them out but Violet stopped me. She whispered in my ear, "Ill sort it. You need a break." I smiled and nodded tiredly. She stood up and walked over to the twins. She facepalmed and started talking to them and telling them to go away. I took another drag from my cigarette and rested my head on the cold brick wall i was sitting against. I sat like that for a good 5 minutes before getting interrupted by a voice calling my name,
"Leila." I swivelled around to face the owner of the voice only to come face to face with Clay Perkins. Oh shit what does this little bastard want from me?

"Yes Clay?" He grinned widely at me, "I wanted to be in a group with you and Gracie, so that he could do the stupid assignment and we could get others things done..."

Eww wtf? I feel like i wanna vomit!  His breath smelled of oily food and sweat. But I'm a coward, "Oh like what?" I said with a smirk, "What would we get done?" Ugh I hate myself for playing along but I have to! I cant blow this! I owe it to Violet. But I start to freak out as he gets closer to me, "Mmhhmm, Well why don't I show you right now?" He smirks as he smashed his mouth on to mine. OH FUCK, he can't go this far. Imma throw up on his face. I really want to. I tried to push him off me but he latches onto the back of my neck with his hand. His other hand travels slowly to my chest as his tongue nearly tears my cheek apart. I'm choking on his fucking tongue! He tucks his hand under my shirt and grazes my stomach with his thumb. Chills run up my spine, but not the good type like when your excited. The kind I got when Grayson touched my face in the gym the other day. Clay pulled me so I fell onto him, i tried my hardest to get up but he held me pinned me down by my arms. Im actually scared now, he grabbed onto my ass! He's never gone this far before! I scream at the top of my lungs but its muffled because Clays fucking mouth is swallowing my fucking face! I'm struggling to fucking breath! He smiled on my mouth and pulled away for a moment to whisper, "I know you're loving this you dirty little slut! You've been lusting after me all year haven't you whore." He shoved his tongue down my throat again, but his words hit me. Here i am parading around in revealing outfits for everyone to see. I really am a dirty slut.

I heard a scream that belonged to Violet as footsteps thundered towards me. Clay jumped off of me and ran, with me sitting on the ground with my shirt half off and makeup smudged up my face. With me sitting there crying like the dirty little slut that i am...

A/N

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