Journal- Transgender

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Hey what's up people. Heres another chapter because I haven't written in months.

Guess what? Im feeling numb again and I just want to sleep. It started a couple of days ago and I hope this time it only lasts a week or so.

Oh btw I have a partner. For the sake of this I'm going to use the name Davey. So they are super cool and I've been friends with them since elementary. I just. Get worried? Like when I'm thinking bad things about myself, I now think that they don't want to be with me and stuff like that.

Anyways, I want to do another q&a soon so if you have any questions comment.

So, I started playing dnd recently and I learned it really fun. I've only played as the dm (dungeon master) before and I've ran two games. I think it would be fun to play but I haven't met anyone in the area who would want to play or knows enough about dnd to dm.

Also I switched from being the super masculine person to just being me. I wear skinny jeans but I hide my chest and wear men's clothes. I think I like this better than wearing flannels and jeans every day just to look more male. And about that, I haven't been called female in public in over a year! Aaaaaaaa! And I wonder if other ftm people have that same kind of thing where it goes from being Very Male™ to just being yourself. I think it just takes time to find you and that's cool. Initially I thought if I didn't wear the manliest clothing and only talked super low I would never pass but now I kind of see it's a lot about how you act. Clothing does help a lot though.

And I'm pretty happy about my name now. I like it because it seems regular enough and undeniably male so that makes me happy. I've stick with the same one for what, four to five months? This might just be my actual name.

Oh shit! I just looked at the time and I should do my homework and study. Well, I'll see you guys later. And please comment it gives me motivation to write even if I haven't written in a while.

Drink some water, take care of yourself.

-Simon