As I Am.......By Kennie Ellis

Chapter 23

Got to the car hey what took you so long? Micheal stop me to say how good our presentation was and how he's looking forward to helping our kids.(Troy had his stupid face look) yeah right he was thinking how good you look it may have had a little to do wit the kids. Shut the hell up Troy he's our sponser noting else. ME when are you going to realize that he wants you PHAT ASS...No he doesnt he has enough women falling at his becon call yeah maybe but not the one he wants. Sorry I aint falling to know one.. I'm good. What's this I hear Kirk is back whats up? Yes he's here for a little while, and this visit is for he said he needed a break since his wife died he wanted to come home  and just relax and see old friends. Ahhhhhh he wants to see you .. Well he did make mention of that,   but look I'm not forcusing on that I want to enjoy this moment .ME when are you going to stop avoiding your love life. You live for everyone else you but not yourself. Look you are an Incredible beautiful and smart black woman. Do you know how many men are looking for you. Well hell I'm aint hiding behind no trees where they at? The reality many don't want a BBW that's stron minded and independent and that's ok I know I'm not twiggy, and I'm good with that if its meant it will happen if not it won't ..For it to happen you have to be open.. Shut up Troy I hear you..Good!!!     

 We arrived back to the office everyone had left so I can announce the good news in our staff meeting tomorrow. Troy was leaving expressed he was going to take DJ to Dancing in the Park tonight and ask if I wanted to go. Sure a 3rd wheel right no I really want you to go you know you can dance circles around me and  I'll sure look good with 2-fine ladies on my arm... I laugh sure I'll go but I wont ride with ya'll I'll drive myself and meet ya. Dancing in the Park is so beautiful its a live band who plays under  the moon light different styles of music mostly Jazz and Big Band.  It's a great place for couples... and if you just like listening to music under the stars. I finished up some last minute details at work and I took off.  

I arrived home DJ was already gone. I just assumed she was with Troy. I jumped in the shower listening to Pattie Pattie and just did a little reflecting on the day. God is so good!!!  I decided to go a little 60 had my flare royal blue dress with my pearl sweater I swooped my hair up in a little updue and put a white lilly in my hair pearl earrings and necklace decided to wear my Light Blue Perfume just because it smells soooo good on. It wasnt like I was expecting anyone to ask me to dance I mean the few times I've went I've dance with some smooth silver toes maybe around 75 or 80 but they still had heart and get up and go. (Phone ringed) Hey you how are you hi, Paul I hadn't heard from you I know I've been really busy and had to go out of town for business was wondering if you had any plans tonight? Matter a fact I'm going Dancing in the park with my sister and Troy, would you like some company sure that would be great. What time around 6:30pm I'll see you there it's a date, I can't wait to see you I've thought about you all week. Really why?    I'll tell you when I see you.. (I was blushing over the phone good he couldn't see me) I'll see you later... you sure will can't wait.  

It was 6:25pm I arrived at my Granmy's house with her favorite flowers Lillies. She came to the door looking beautiful as ever in her pink dress and her lace gloves looking like the lady she's always demostrated. Flowers for a vision of beauty Oh Thank you Mikey you are just like your grandfather so sweet and thoughful.   'Shall we go Madame" Well why yes kind sir. 

I arrived at the park I hadn't seen DJ or Troy yet so I  went ahead and grab a bench (it was great seating) the band had already begin to play. I sat and just enjoyed the music and all the couples dancing and just being in love. I knew deep down I yearned for someone to look at me and love me like I'm witnessing many of the couples. The band had a lead singer and she sung A Tisk it a task it but Pearl Bailey it was amazing and then It's only a Paper Moon by Ella  Fitgearld. My Mother and Grandmother loved Jazz and Blues and because of them I developed a love for it. As I sat there just enjoying the night and the whole atmosphere. Hello beautiful come here often? of course I smiled because I knew who it was .. I'm sorry sir I don't speak to strangers.. May I say you are look beautiful tonight .. Yes you may and thank you.. May I have a dance tonight  I'll think about it.. hmm playing hard to get huh.  No not at all just particular on who I dance with thats all (I had giggled) . He hugged me.. Hello beautiful you look amazing thank you sir where's your sister  they should be here shortly.. (We both sat down and listen the band)Kirk went to get us something to drink.