Criminal Mentality || L x Reader x Light

Chapter 17: Placed Burden (2/2)

"Light. I know you're Kira." 

You sighed for the nth time this hour. 

'It's no good, how do I tell him that I know he's Kira without shocking the lights out of him? For hell's sake, he may just kill me right then and there.'

"(Name)." 

That's where your heart leaped out of your chest, if you didn't know better, you'd say you had a heart attack.

You turned around, sharply taking in your breath as you saw the light caramel haired detective behind you. 

Light Yagami. 

Well, there goes your plan out of the roof. 

You nervously looked at him, seeing a glint in his eyes, your heart skipped a beat, and not in the lovey-dovey kind of way, definitely not. 

ABORT MISSION. ABORT MISSION. ABORT THE GADDAMN MISSION!

"You know...  I heard you." 

"Y-y-yea-yeah." You stuttered like there was no tomorrow. 

Well probably, HE MIGHT JUST MURDER YOU RIGHT THERE, TOMORROW WILL SURELY NEVER COME.

An awkward silence followed. 

Really... That's stupid. Out of all the kinds of silence, it was an awkward silence, not the 'oh-shit-run-for-your-life-(name)' silence, or the 'she-knows-my-secret-I'll-murder-her' silence. 

You know that he knows that you know his secret. Awkward. 

"I-is this the part where I run for my life?" You asked, trying to lighten up the heavy atmosphere. 

"Well, you can run, but you can't hide from me." He replied. (If the situation wasn't serious right now, you would've glomped him down for that. Ah, Tokyo Ghoul.)

"L-light, I-I. dammit, how do I say this without you not believing me?!" You groaned in frustration. He raised an eyebrow at you, his eyes still having that strange glint. 

"I don't plan on exposing you." 

"Yeah. I don't believe you." 

"See what I mean?!" You pouted, sighing heavily. 

A light bulb suddenly lit up inside your head. 

It's a shitty plan, but it might just work.

But as I say, it really is a crappy plan. 

"Seriously, you're a detective, and you have this mysterious connection with L, why would I ever believe that you won't expose me?" 

You were born for this moment. 

Forcing a blush on your cheeks, secretly thinking of your anime husbands and cringe-worthy moments (blush combo!), a really visible dust of pink -or paint of red- blush grew on your cheeks. You looked at him shyly, replacing the (serial killer) boy in front of you with (character), making you automatically look awestruck (*cough* obsessed). 

"T-to be honest with you, (cue the .5 seconds to decide whether to say you like him or you love him), I l-li-love you.. It's weird yeah, not even a year passed, but those little moments made me savor life a bit better." You paused, silently dying inside. 

"But yeah, the way you brought me chocolates when I'm in that time of the month, the way you come with me to buy ice cream, the way you offer to help me on some of my paperwork after you've magically finished yours, I fell little by little, and now, here I am." 

You deserve an Oscar. Millions of fanfictions readied you for this moment. And you thanked every living Death God that this wasn't inside the headquarters, or the camera would've recorded such a horrible scene.

Light was needless to say, speechless. He was... weirdly very glad about you loving him. Weirdly, weirdly glad. He knew he can use you, but the joy he felt in his heart wasn't for something like that, it was directed to something "pure", something quite... beautiful. 

The joy he felt was because he knew he loved you back, and that joy terrified him. 

Wow. From death every corner, your life story somehow evolved to this, 

Lying about loving someone. 

That made you really guilty, love isn't something you take lightly, and you avoid the topic- or perhaps the feeling altogether- like a plague, being shattered for craving love, getting hurt for trying to find love, desperately holding on to bare life because of love, you didn't want to get involved with such a word. 

'Was this the right choice?' You wondered as you waited for his reply. You didn't have a plan on how to make your dream possible, nope, you're waltzing right into this without a single clue on what to do. 

You jolted as you felt his arms wrap around you, huh, he smelled like cherries- 'I DIDN'T MEAN TO SNIFF HIM' you screamed in your brain as a blush of embarrassment grew on your cheeks. As he pulled back, he smiled at you, genuinely. 

His smile was genuine. 

That shocked you. Greatly. 

"Will you help me create a new world? We can do it, together." He softly spoke, and you knew he was trying to manipulate you. 

You were conflicted, you didn't know how and what to answer. Were you the one manipulating him? or does he know and is the one manipulating you? 

A smile made its way onto your lips, 'Either way, I have to pretend.' 

"Yeah. Let's make the world a better place."

And it seems, another light bulb lit inside your mind.

If I can show him the horrible things he's unknowingly causing, I can save him. Kira, you're the enemy, not Light, not the world. 

You felt happy, it was you against Kira, not you against the world.