Addie pov
He agreed. I knew deep down he would say yes but it felt so good to hear him actually say yes. "do you want to leave yet love" Zayn said smirking at me suspiciously. "sure I just want to get a drink" I said returning the smirk. I walked over to alcohol table and noticed Katherine talking to the party host. I've heard stories from girls at school that Liam is really kind and loving. He would be good for someone like Katherine. For years she had to put up with our Alcoholic father. No one to tell her things will get better. She truly was alone in this world. She must of blamed me for her having such a life. yeah Liam would be good for her.
I drunk vodka and I felt the familiar sensation go down my throat. I was used to the affects by now. In fact I actually liked the feeling it gave me. I had confidence. I had no worries but all good things come at a price. Hangovers. They truly was hell. "I'm ready to go now" I said smiling at Zayn. God he looked so attractive in a suit. The way his perfectly shaped body would stand out. It was to die for. Thinking of things like this was another affect of alcohol this I didn't like. "okay" he held his hand out for me to take which I gladly took. The car ride home wasn't awkward like our other encounters. we made small talk and it was enough for me to forget everything. My mind was just hooked on Zayns appearance. His eyes, his hair and his lips were enough for me to want him.
we arrived at his house once again. I assume his parents weren't in. My last visit I noticed he had no photos of his family. In fact it didn't feel like another person lived there. Maybe its just my imagination running wild. "do you want anything to eat or anything" he asked me while sitting next to me on the sofa. "no thanks" I said. he took me to his room. I sat on the bed. I had no pyjamas to change into. so if Zayn doesn't offer me his I'll be going to bed in undergarments. I hated this idea as I was incredibly insecure about my weight. Even Zayn cant stop the stupid insecurities I had at stupid moments. "here" he said handing me some of his sweatpants.
we sat on his bed just talking. It felt so nice to talk to someone who cares about me. Although he hasn't admitted to me he 'likes' me but the way he acted around me. He acted just as complete as me. I looked at his lips while he was talking and I suddenly felt myself leaning towards him. my lips crashed onto his. our lips moved in sync. it was full of passion and desire. he pulled me onto his lap and our kiss intensified. I wanted him so bad. I just couldn't im not ready. "Zayn I cant" I said pulling myself of him. I knew Zayn wanted to say something but he didn't. "Zayn when im with you...I feel free "I finally admitted. "im no longer insecure and it thanks to you Zayn " I said looking at the ground. He laid down on the bed and I laid next to him. I desperately wanted him to talk to me. I guess he thought I was a complete idiot.
Zayn sighed. " When I was younger when I thought of my future, I saw myself performing on stage in front of millions.... And now when I think of my future I see you. Addie" Zayn said taking my breath away. No one has ever made me feel so welcome and loved. I felt a tear spring in my eye. " Zayn" I said but he put his finger on my lips. "Addie it scares me ok I have done so many things I shouldn't of and I cant tell you because I cant lose you Addie.. I need you" he said. I noticed he also had a tear in his eyes. I wanted him to open up to me . I need for him to trust me. "I wont leave you Zayn" I said hugging him from behind. my legs either side of him
we sat In silence. We both wait for one of use to start talking "Addie you are perfect ok? you don't need to be insecure." he said looking at me. I blushed at his comment. "you can trust me Zayn." I said taking his hand and putting it in mine. I gave him a reassuring smile. A tear rolled down his face. What possibly could be that bad he would be scared about losing me? "I-I jeez Addie" his lips crashed onto mine. it was extremely sloppy I could tell he wanted to forget his troubles by kissing me. should I allow it? I mean he helped me.. I should return the favour. I felt his tongue beg for entrance and I allowed it. we made out for 10 minuets straight.
Zayns phone was phoning non stop and it annoyed me that he wouldn't answer it. Finally it stopped ringing an we continued this heated make out session. I wanted to stop myself before I did something I regretted by I just couldn't. Zayn stopped kissing me and continued to look sad and lost. "look Addie I'm going out see you in a bit yeah" he said leaving the bed. Was he seriously going to leave me in His house? Before he could leave I grabbed his hand. "we have all done things we aren't proud off.. its called life.. we have to get over our mistakes and move on Zayn" I said. Hopefully it was good advice. we went back to bed.
After a few hours of spooning Zayn finally fell asleep. he was incredibly cute when he was asleep. I was thirsty so I went downstairs to find the kitchen. I found it and it was nicely decorated. Black cupboards and white walls and tiles. it was incredibly homey. I went into the living room to see what time it was but there was a man in there. his back was facing me so I couldn't get a good view of his face. he must of heard me in the kitchen because he slowly turned round. He was quite young , maybe 18? " ah you must be Addie.. Zayn never shuts up about you" he said with a smug look. He reminded me of a male version of Katherine. "you--you are?" I said stuttering. "Ben" he held his hand out to shake but I rejected the offer.
I heard Zayn run down the stairs and he immediately looked worried when he saw me and Ben together. "hello lad" Ben said smiling at Zayn. Zayns eyes were locked on mine. Why was he so worried? "go upstairs now Addie" Zayn said looking sternly at Ben. "no she can stay we have loads to chat about, don't we Zayn" Ben said still smiling.
Notes
okay so bad chapter but how cute is Addie and Zayn?
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questions
who is Ben?
what's Zayn secret?
how will Addie react?
