I awaited Zayns arrival for a few hours now. Where could he be? He can hate me , I mean I accepted him and his past. Im still in shock I did actually. For years I hated gangs and drugs but when it comes to Zayn I can bare them. It scared me that Zayn can make me change so easily, he could bend my morals and Im doing things I wouldn't normally do. I feared Zayn would leave me, I've started to depend on Zayn to make me feel pretty and deep down I think Zayn depends on me as well. He wants someone to make him forget his past and make him feel proud of himself. We need each other.
I heard the front door open then close. I presume it was Zayn so I went to check. I was greeted by a beaten up Zayn. He had a cut lip and numerous bruises on his face and body. "Zayn what happened" I tried to sound relaxed but failed. "im fine Addie" he said while walking past me. Did he not sense my concern? It was happening again , he was giving me the cold shoulder. It angered me , after everything he was ignoring me. "listen Zayn you will tell me what happened to you" I said standing over him. He just chuckled to himself like I said something incredibly funny. "you don't care or you shouldn't care Addie im no good for you" he said avoiding my gaze.
I sat down next to Zayn pulling his head about with care to see his face. Although there was cuts and bruises everywhere he was still extremely attractive. "Addie why don't you just leave" he whispered, sending chills down my body. "im not good for you Addie " he said . "I don't care" I said before pressing my lips to his. He deepened the kiss. I couldn't continue I just wanted to know what was wrong with him. I removed my self from the sofa and sat opposite him. "what happened Zayn" I said trying to sound calm. "I went to find Ben , I couldn't stand the way you were looking at me, I know you are disappointed in me" he said looking straight at me. He thought I was disappointed in him. " Zayn .. its all in the past it don't matter" I gave him a reassuring smile.
I went into the kitchen to make some food since we didn't go on our 'date' when I felt to large arms wrap around me. It felt so nice I could get used to this feeling. "sorry we didn't go on our date, do you want to go now?" he whispered in my ears. Once again I got chills going down my spine. It was like he could read my mind. "up to you" I turned round so I was now facing him. Zayn buried his face into my neck. "okay go get ready" he said. I didn't really want to go out but I was kinda excited for our first official date.
"wow Addie you look amazing" he blushed at the sight of me. If it wasn't for his cuts on bruises he would be shy of perfect. "thanks Zayn" I blushed also. Only Zayn has had this affect on me , Niall did at one point but that was a dead end I suppose
Zayns pov
Addie came walking down the stairs. She looked absolutely perfect. She was like a angel in disguise. It still baffled me why she would want someone like me. I was sweet or innocent like her. She wasn't haunted by her past every time she closed her eyes. I know it sounds bad but im glad she's insecure because I have a reason to tell her she's beautiful every single day. Yesterday when she said she was free from her insecurities thanks to me just made my heart sink. What I said to her was true. It scared me that all I see when I look into the future is Addie, that's why im afraid of losing her, she made me want to better myself , become a better man.
"so where we eating then Zayn" she said intertwining our fingers. Things like that just made my insides melt. How can someone that beautiful feel so insecure about herself. "MacDonald's" I joked and she nudged my arm. " err I don't know" I said. Addie didn't reply. It looked like she was in deep thought. This cant be good. What ever she wants to know i'll tell her, I wont lie to her, I cant. "Zayn where are you parents... really?"
Notes
Addies date outfit
short chapter this is just a filler :0
