Endless Summer

Chapter fourteen

Its been a week since everything happened. I haven't spoken to taylor, i haven't answered his calls or texts and when he comes by, I have Kyle or Kim tell him that I'm not home. I hate lying to him, I really do, but what choice do I have? I could tell him what happened, but I don't want him to look at me in a different way. Its hard to keep it from him, but I know that I'll have to tell him sooner or later.

After what happened at the club, I don't know how to face him. I thought that i was ready, but apparently I wasn't and when I see him through the window when he comes by, he looks so hurt. I son;t know if its me that hurt him or if he feels bad because of the club. I don't want to hurt him, but I already have by not talking to him.

I didn't want this, to have this one thing keep hurting me. I have to get over it and soon. if i don't it will hurt me even more. Which is why i think that I have to tell taylor. Only my family knows, no one else and as much as I want to keep it that way, I don't think I'll get over it until I tell someone else.

I sigh and pick up my phone, texting Taylor to come over and telling him nothing else.

Twenty minutes later the doorbell rings. I get up off the couch and get the door since no one else is home. I open the door and see Taylor standing there with his hands in the pockets of his shorts.

"Hey," i say softly. "come on in."

He comes in and kisses my cheek lightly. "How have you been?"

"I've been okay. Listen taylor I'm sor--"

"No I'm sorry I shouldn't have pressured you."

"No, no taylor that's not what it was."

"Then what was it?"

I take a breath. "Something happened a while back..."

He frowns. "What?"

"My ex, well we wre at a party and he got drunk and we were making out and then we went our separate ways for a few hours. When I found him again--"

"He cheated on you?"

I shake my head. "When i found him, he was even more drunk, but I didn't notice. He brought me to a room and we started making out again. The making out got pretty heavy and he started trying to take my clothes off, but i told him no, I wasn't ready and he was drunk." i say. "He didnt like that I said no, so he slapped me across my face and I got scared so I just stayed where I was, he tried again with my clothes and I said no once again. He hit me again, but harder to the point where it would bruise. He got my shirt off and well I think you know how that all ended..."

"Oh god... Holly I'm so sorry." He hugs me. I hold onto him tightly and squeeze my eyes shut. "Holly," he rubs my back. "This doesn't change anything between us, you know that right?"

"I know and I'm so glad that you don't think of me any different. I don't know if I could handle it." I wipe away the tears that have fallen down my cheeks.

"Holly, don't worry okay. You're my girl." He kisses my cheek. "Always."

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I laugh and playfully shove Taylor before running away from him. "You're not hugging me! You're all wet!" I giggle. I hear him laugh, and I look back to see him catching up to me and I run even faster.

Not even a minute later his arms wrap around my waist and he lifts me up. "Got you." he whispers in my ear. He holds me tight against him and he starts running towards the water.

"Taylor!" He chuckles and runs right into the water, making me become soaking wet. "You're going to pay for that!" I hit the back of taylor's head.

"hey," he frowns and rubs the back of his head. "what'd you do that for?"

"You got me all wet." I pout.

He pretends to frown. "Awe, i'm sorry baby." he pecks my lips and puts me down, before wrapping his arm around my waist as we walk back up to my house.

"You're not sorry, you're trying not to laugh."

He chuckles. "You know me so well!"

"Well I should! We've known each other since we were little."

"Yes, but you forgot all about me." he say quietly, frowning.

I stop walking and wrap my arms around him, hugging him. "I'm sorry," I murmur. "If I could change it I would, but I'm just glad we're together now."

"Me too." he kisses me, pulling me closer to him. I let my hands slide up his chest and lock behind his neck, making me move even closer. He smiles and deepens our kiss a little bit, making me tug at the hair at the nape of his neck. He groans and pulls back, resting his forehead against mine.He pulls back, smiling and we  make our way into the house. I grab us some towels and we dry off before heading up to my room. I hand him his clothes and grab some from my dresser for me and walk into the bathroom. I change and put my hair into a ponytale then head back into my room where taylor is already changed.

I smile and kiss his cheek. "Want something to drink?"

"Sure." he wraps his arm around my waist as we make our way downstairs to the kitchen. I get two waters out of the fridge and hand him one. "There's a party on Saturday, do you want to come with me?"

I bite my lip. "Um, where is it?"

"My house."

"Okay, yeah, i'd love too."

He smiles and kisses my cheek. "Don't worry, i know you're not a big fan of parties."

"Its not going to be like the one that you brought me to with your parents, is it?"

He shakes his head. "nope. Its people from my school. You'll have fun, I'll make sure of that."

"No drinking?" i ask thinking about what happened at the club.

"There will be drinking, but I'm not going to drink and neither are you." I nod. He kisses my cheek and pulls me into his arms. he picks me up and carries me into the living room. He sits me on the couch and we lie down together. I feel him stroke my hair and theen rub my back. I'm almsot completely asleep when I hear: "I love you Holly."