The opposite of silence [EDITING]

Ch 27: GRAB THE HEELIES

I sit back in my bed, enjoying the small moment of silence. It's actually too quiet...
I try to reposition myself, but the silence was too uncomfortable.
"Alright!" I shout, leaping out of bed "what's going on?" I storm out of my room to the lounge only to find there's no one around. "What the actual fuck" I mutter, looking under the table for any sign of life.
"They left" Blurri whispers, startling me. I bump my head on the table as I lift my self to look at Blurri "said some shit about the beach"
I start to think about franki in a bikini, her boobs bursting out of the small black fabric. I bite my lip.
"Sorry" Blurri speaks up, I stare at her, not understanding the concept
"What?" I questing, blinking at her
"You got excited about..." she pauses "her" she finished, I raise an eyebrow, not understanding where she's coming from.
"What's with that anyways? Sure she looks bad ass and has a good pair..." Blurri stops, lifting her chest slightly, "but she doesn't love you"
I blink at her again, the beging laughing once I realised what she said, "oh you're funny, of course she doesn't love me" I place a hand on her shoulder and look in her eyes, she looks at me confused. "She's the best puzzle I've ever seen. She is beauty" I nod, "she doesn't love me, but I love her enough that she doesn't have too. Besides, she's always been there"
"Would you love me the same if I was also there?" She asks, putting her hand over mine.
"You're both different woman Blurri" I feel for her, but she's the puzzle I don't want to take apart. Sometimes the pieces take longer to put back.
"Just... tell me why you won't fuck me?!" She shouts, dropping her hand from mine. She balls up her fists.
"Woah" I raise my hands in defence and take a step back "I can't do that to you Blurri. I'm most definitely not someone you want to give your soul to like that"
"But you are, you're cute, sensitive when you need to be, but you also know how to make people happy. You care about everyone around you" she exclaims,
She doesn't know. She shouldn't... "I killed kali with no mercy, I almost killed Franki. I hurt Mei to the point she wanted to die, and did die. I avoid Becki like I don't even have an hour left to live, and all she wants is to be loved." I blurt out, fuck. Done it anyways.
"Everyone has their flaws" she shrugs, taking a small step towards me.
"I treat Tobias like he's dirt beneath my boots. I just finger fucked the new girl because I couldn't hold myself back. I've never once fed Patti proper dog food. And she's my dog! Naomi won't leave her room because I make her angry to the point she can't function. Vicki is here because of me, she bleeds every day just so I can stay looking like this" I found it hard to stop once I started, Blurri took a bigger step back,
"We don't think you're that bad Eli" she mutters
"Sure" I growl, taking a step to the side and walking around her, going to my room

Blurri POV

~'just tell him about your feelings. He'll fuck you then. That's what I done'~

I watch Eli leave, "Yeah right Vicki" I huff and go to the couch, the tv turns on immediately. "Go away Naomi" i sit back.
"That was pretty rough" she speaks, "talk about a shut down"
"Just fuck off" I stand up and walk into the kitchen.
Naomi follows by transferring to the digital clock on the bench "if you want it so bad, why don't you make the move. You know he won't be able to hold back"
"I'm probably the only person he doesn't want to fuck" I mumble, getting a cup out of the cupboard.
"He hasn't made a move on me" Naomi moves again, to the coffee machine this time. I place the cup under the dispenser
"white chocolate mocha" I say, grabbing some biscuits from above the machine. "What does that have to do with my situation?" I ask, pushing a cream cookie into my mouth.
"You're not more different than a few of us, he's got some sort of complex" she starts brewing the coffee. I chew on the sweet and crunchy biscuit.
"Wait, how many would you say he's slept with?" I ask, turning around to look at her. Shaking the machine a little when I push my hands against the bench.
"Three. Foreplay is his favourite, although it's not counted as sex"
My coffee finishes brewing, I pick it up and take a sip, letting the warm sweet coffee fill my taste buds.

Only three? Franki.... Vicki.... who's the third?
"Hmm" I start pondering, "Harriette?" I question, looking into my hot drink.
"No, Vicki, Becki and Franki" Naomi already knew what I was talking about, "why are you so caught up on him anyways? He's a douche"
I sigh and take another sip "I just think he's great"
"So I'm going to guess you were mostly surrounded by guys while you were away. And there's suddenly only one, so you've got to mark your territory right? Trust me, you won't be able to hold him down while Franki is around" the machine shuts off as Naomi leaves.

She's right... I'm going to need a little help...