A Collection of Randomness

Dear 'Other' Mom

To the mother I've never known:

I don't hate you, in case you may be wondering. No. In fact, I miss you so much, even though there's not much of you for me to miss. 

I might not think of you every day to my knowledge, but in the back of my head, you're always on my mind. 

I see you in my mom and dad. I see you in my friends and the people I'm supposed to call my 'family'.

As the years pass and pass, I will never lose hope in finding my way back to you. 

But I have grown up from the broken little child you gave up for adoption. I've learned that love cannot be bought, it can only be earned. 

I've learned that, sometimes, love is much harder to show than to say. 

That's how I know you love me. Because I'm here right now. 

I can only imagine the selflessness it took to leave me at that train station. To say goodbye to your child in hopes that they will live a better life. 

I miss you everyday. But who knows? Maybe my vision of you is distorted and biased. Maybe you're not like this at all. Maybe you don't even love me. 

But until I know for sure, you'll always be in my heart. Pushing me forward in the hopes of one day meeting the woman who put me on the path I am living today.