A Collection of Randomness

Lies

I've never been proud of lying a lot.
Or at all.
But now, the lies just seem to slip out of my mouth before I can stop them.
They're simple ones, really.
But I tell them often.
I know I'm hurting myself in the process.
But for me, the truth hurts a lot more than the lie.
Especially if it involves how I feel.
I don't like feeling selfish.
But whenever I say something about myself,
It seems as if I'm just a narcissist. 
I've found myself lying more and more lately.
For instance:

I'm fine
I'm falling apart in front of you eyes but don't want to say it and seem selfish

I don't care
I care more than I should

Go if you want
Please don't leave me alone

It's okay
Why do you keep hurting me

I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper within myself.
And I'm afraid one day,
I won't be able to find a way
Back out.