A Collection of Randomness

Enthusiasm

You know that feeling 

when you're so excited about something;

you're so excited to tell someone about it.

And when you do,

they don't care nearly as much as you do,

or don't even give a shit.

And it takes a moment

and suddenly it's like:

oh.

you don't care.

thanks so much for ruining my enthusiasm

just because you couldn't at least pretend to be happy for me. 

It's like:

I wanted to share this cool, fun thing that makes me happy.

but you don't care. 

And it crushes my hope to ever be able to talk to you

about things that make me happy.

Because now I know

you're not even a good pretend friend. 

And this happens

far too often than it should. 

And I suppose I should learn from my mistakes.

But I keep hoping and wishing

that one day the reaction will change. 

And every time it doesn't,

I feel myself slipping

further and further into the depths of my mind. 

I feel the disappointment bubbling up to the surface.

But I'll never let myself show just how much your indifference hurts me. 

It's like I'm in a constant state of disappointment. 

Disappointment that I set myself up for.

Because it's me who hasn't learned

to not waste my happiness

on you.

Disclaimer: Not about anyone in particular, but I thought it was something y'all could relate to? I dunno. But I hate when this happens to me.