''Us and Them''

Recalling!

I ( loved the gift, i wasn't really expecting anything until i read those lines ''your bday gift is far more sophisticated than these words'' , until i heard you saying ''what? don't expect me that I'm taking out your gift outta my bag'', until i saw you put that chat in archive!!! It isn't about the gift, isn't about the expectation, isn't about my doubts or suspicions that u hide sth from me. Its about the immeasurable time you took out for me, just to have a glance of me smiling at you, just for the sake of raising my spirits. The things you've done for me ever since our friendship or 'pretty-sth-else' started, they really do mean sth to me; sth extraordinary which everytime i fail to express. Anytime I just don't feel like saying thank you's to you cuz.. cuz sth u do for me worth more than just a gratitude. Ps ur existence countdown is kinda being started)

AM ( i freakish enough to be jealous of you sometimes? Yeap that mood swing an hour ago was a demonstration of my jealousy :/ Nvm! i also kinda taunted you which you thank god didn't take into consideration. You know why it's happenin with me: the fact that i get a lil envy? cuz u've started using the phrase ''too pretty''. yeap that somewhat lead to me being equally narcissistic and possessive (about you)! I aint lying but a bit embarrassed instead. )

SO ( umm... whassup? thinkin bout the time when i had that chat with ya, bout me being somewhere abroad, all alone, gone for the sake of my studies. Then comes the thought that ur family is kinda against of u goin abroad *sighs* :( Well umm! then comes the thought that when i asked u to take me to hell but u decided/said to travel me to Singapore anyway! well even those words are enough for me. Remember when u said that ''even lovers can be obstacles for each other. One just has to overcome the other for the benefit of the both. Compromise where you can and when you can. But when you cant, don't! It is your job to plant yourself like a tree and tell them 'no, you move'! '' )

BLANK ( is the sky! no wait! Its red? it maybe really is geminid meteor shower's day! the stars might really be moving! its quite cold out there as i myself went out twice and came back freezing and shiverin. you might have seen comets tonight but i couldn't even see the stars. Anyway i still believe u but if it were a kid saying that instead of u, i would've ignored his idiosyncrasy/awed at his cuteness and innocense :p Oh well)

RIGHT (is the time to confess i aint perfect or beautiful or pretty. In fact I've never been beautiful but the thing that transmuted me into this ''too pretty'' being is the warmth and care i received from ya, this was the process of not falling apart but falling into something different with a new capacity to be beautiful! i guess i rightly recall that.... idk maybe )

NOW ( Imma say goodnight nd not a goodbye! saying goodbye is just not my thing. imma say God bless ya nd i pray that God grant me more lively days in my life where i get the opportunity to stare u. Just stay the same, Just stay with me.. :) )