''Us and Them''

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I figured out that my left leg hurts exactly when im stressed out. And sometimes i do stuff that exasperate others to the extent where i can be labelled as ''too much''. Either i do nothin 99% of the time or !5 of the time i just do sth unknowingly and indifferently while intentionally stayin unaware of the consequences of my actions. The aftermath, its sth that strikes me hard, real hard i mean! I overthink a great deal about my action nd its extreme outcome nd i just keep belittlin me. I wish i should have stayed quite, idle, silent, uncommunicative, non-existent sth sth that just would keep me away from indulgin nd committin idiosyncrasies. I can be too extreme at times. Its an unusual habit of mine since childhood nd as much as i hate for this, i just couldnt ever refrain from it. *left leg hurts real bad* 

Well in my defense i can say sth. Its like i may have figured out why it happens with me. My utmost quietness has got a side effect. Maybe its a way that i ummm cushion my stress or sth or release my burden or sth. Idek what im doin or sayin these days nd its really peculiar of me. Also i feel like im a body with no soul but ive got some strange frens who kinda keep refillin me with enough energy to survive each day. Alright! This too shall pass. Nothin else.

Now i realize k each of us has got weird habits of his own nd must i not erroneously intrepret. Also garfy, i wanted to say sth... Me been botherin u with my petty issues nd been actin like a spoilt brat since long enuf! imma get over it i promise. Youve always remained a good listener to me, hazel adores ya, p.s. stop feelin alienated nd like a second priority. I swear ure not ze 2nd priority! Just forgive me for not offerin a good ear to u nd not kinda actin like a sane person. Nd Rolex....... I do know what its like to handle so many stuff at once, i know what ure goin through these days, there are things that im aware as in what might be botherin u nd there might be things that i may not be aware of... I just pray this tough time of urs to end real quick. Its useless to say im with u since im helpin u out in no way.... My prayers are with you all the time. One last thing: if u cant start it well then ummm u can end it well! Stay clear!