''Us and Them''

Metamorphosis

a tremor, a sudden change, but not the unanticipated one, not the shockin one, not even the unexpected one. Just the one that i didnt want to imagine about, dream about, think about, talk about or even joke about. Remainin oblivious and indifferent to whats about to occur in a few days just never gave me enough delight or comfort, it just deceitfully made me think im all good for the time being but tbh i wasnt really! Me is kinda done with my false consciousness. 

You know what struck me hard! the fact that imma be entitlin him as my 'former' tea buddy, my 'ex' partner in badminton, my 'gone' companion with whom i used to go on long walks. This all had to kinda take a halt at some point. I so feel like punchin the time rn but the fact that its intangible, imma just let my thoughts tackle with it. Whats left there are a few promises which may sound nothin but means the world to me! gettin to meet him every once in a while......just that. nothin more do i ask for! The position he left me in is a blessin, some friends of truthful nd carin nature, some who'd call me their sister (sheriff), some who'd call me their bff (garfy), some who'd like to have tea with me (vacancy yet to be occupied by someone), some who'd write me motivatin stuff nd last but not the least, some who'd screw me up nd make me go insane while also boostin my stamina nd ameliorate my confidence (watsomer)!

This all is sth that i realized just last night! the farewell party, it went smooth for me, without worryin about anythin, although there had been a lotta stuff to worry about! The hostin part wasnt really complicated for me as i already knew nd so did everyone else that entertainin people is not my thing! So i just went on with my usual gags nd attitude! Before farewell i really went crazy for choosin a right title for him. Disappointin was the fact that titles of all other friends of ours were just not really up to the mark. Well my struggle was kinda real to change the title which had already got printed or sth! Yeah so the farewell video? that was a real struggle as well. It was indeed the best part of the whole event. Other best parts were: turnin around nd almost bumpin into him, scrutinizin garfy takin good pictures relentlessly, appearin taller than garfy, ze car ride...... every freakin thing was lit! every freakin fren of mine looked gorgeous except that he looked more jaw-droppin than em. It has always remained damn difficult for me to complimentin nd adorin. I just secretly keep on starin the beauty of you guys without ever gettin caught *evil laughs*

Time with you was the best fulfillin one ever. Never have i ever reckoned it as wasted when spent with you. Never wished more in my life but if ever did it just somehow never got fulfilled. In our case, i got more than i longed for. What else do i deserve? Time didnt fly, it just wandered when we were together.... it wandered so stupendously that i remember each moment of it. It somehow got engraved in my memory. Never have i even been so confident bout my mistakes, my clumsiness and my choices. Its just that where i stand rn, u provided me that platform, u escorted me to that spotlight. Im what i wanted to be and you get the credit for that. It feels kinda unfair that after all this struggle to reach that charismatic metamorphosis, ure leaving me on my own..... Im a well-wisher and i wish that may you reach the peak point of you a aim and the chance to enjoy your success with your best fellas and thereafter, may you descend with eternal appeasement and tranquility! May you be the source of sprinkling happiness into distressed souls just like u did to mine! May we get more beautiful moments together! Amen!