''Us and Them''

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Its been a year since i started to develop my writing skills! Its been a year since i started taking initiatives! Its been a year since i adopted changes in life, contradicting peculiar and pathetic actions and reactions! I'm so not a social media freak. I used to be an introvert but the transformation to an ambivert required me doing things that i could have never imagined myself doing. It is the prerequisite for my survival in the public sphere otherwise i would have been wiped out altogether by everyone.

The change that ive brought in me is humongous. What i need to do but what i want to do- a huge disparity that ive created here. People don't have any idea what i am, what i think. Instead they tend to ask me one thing only the moment they bump into me: ''what happened?'' or sometimes: ''you feeling left out?'' Like wth! Is it whateva you ask written on my forehead? :/ There's just one person in my life who knows me to some greater extent, the one who dared spent time with me in solitude, who dared listened to the calming silence with me, who dared acknowledged and empathized me at times! Its maybe that i ask too much from anyone who dares get in touch with me, i ask em their time, and not just time but deep conversational vigils! Ive got eyes that dare see wonders and ive got willingness for make my dreams come true. I know what i can do and i know ill be victorious! *sighs* It drives me crazy when people say that i cant do this or that!

I got a bit nostalgic last night and started wondering if i matter! And that's when i realized that ive been given more than how much i longed for! I got known by the people who matter! That's more than enough for me. Ive got a gazillion secrets to tell you but am just waiting for the right time. Ive trained myself well to hold things inside and I'm way farer from bottling em up. I'm basically a super dedicated unpaid actor :) or idk :(

Theres something that i really wantya to know Ed that even if u do the worst to me, id still be praising you! Yet u do the supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! Hmmm......... Another thing that I'm worried about is that ive got yet another contribution in you catchin a cold! That's awful :/ but don't ya worry I'm tryin hard to catch one too so that i could make you call it even. :D Or i guess u just need to have tea cuz its has sth to do with licorice which is sth beneficial idk! hey I'm a business student! And youll also be needing a tissue-stuffed pillow so that it u wont be needing to get up to grab the tissues again and again! And you know what? if school were on, i would've asked everyone to stay away from u for uve caught a severe cold or sth and instead id have have u stick with me all the time ;)) hah!