''Us and Them''

I aint losin this time!

Each night before my exam, i cant get a sleep. And when get done with my exam, i return home, make my bed, and spend the next 6 hours sleepin! But one thing i know for sure that this time i am not losin. Im just on the verge of improvin.  ''One who would have the fruit must climb the tree''. Its only this time that ive accepted my potentiality of havin that fruit so i just keep on climbin. Its something like that even in the most hardcore time and crowd i dont consider myself competing with anyone. i dont focus on the thing that everyone here is better than me. instead i think of the people who must have been goin through sth devastatin due to which they mightnt be able to perform well. ah well. Ive accepted my weakness and im learnin to project em as my strength so that no one could ever get a chance to hurt me. Also im avoidin to kill two birds with one shot. Im also done with fear. fear is fear no more. Even i aint doin sth wrong then i shouldnt fear. But if i do sth bad then for sure i get petrified. Thats how its supposed to be. Im tryin to learn to fear god at times when i get on the wrong path. There were times when i realized what egregious and erroneous i had gotten myself into so i tried supplicatin myself to god. I asked him to give me a reason and an excuse to get myself out of it. And the very next day i got my prayers answered. This happened twice. The next time when i did the same, when i endeavoured to get myself out of it, He did help me. He does answer my prayers! I have Him by my side! Thats why i aint losin. Im winnin. A piece of advice for you. Be alright. Get to him whenever youre in trouble. Get to him whenever youre not in trouble. Focus on yourself. Stay chill. Fear nothin. Havin a bad exam isnt the end of the world. its all in your mind. Thats all your mind mantra. ''If not this, then you'll have that'' I promise.