Valerie 🥀 • jb x bh

seventeen

Justin

"Oh my god, you were so chubby!" Valerie squealed looking at my baby photos and I rolled my eyes.

"And the naughtiest too, there wasn't a day, the teacher didn't call me to school in the middle of the day to take him away" Mom said and everyone laughed.

"One day, he ran away from school and came to my house to hide from the parents and when they came for him, he cried and stomped his feet and did everything to make them stop" Grandma said and everyone laughed again.

"Well, classic Justin" Val said making everyone chuckle again and I glared at her.

"Also, I don't know if I should tell you, but your man was a major playboy in school back then, catching chicks left to right" Chaz said.

"I'm not even surprised Chaz" Val said and they snickered.

"Oh, but that was until Eve, she changed the man and made him so much better" Chaz added absent mindedly, suddenly dropping a heavy weight on my chest and the whole room went silent and everyone's smiles dropped.

"Oh shoot" He mumbled when he realized what he said. I felt Valerie squeeze my arm.

"Well, thanks to her right?" Valerie said.

"Okay but why is everyone just showing her Justin's baby pics? Its my turn now and Val, you can already tell that I was a cuter kid than Justin right?" Ava said, breaking the thick air.

"Totally!" Val said and they flipped the album over to Ava's photos.

Nobody dared to even look at me and I couldn't swallow the sudden lump formed in my throat.

"Hey, I'm just gonna go to the bathroom okay?" I whispered to Valerie and she looked at me and nodded.

"Okay" She said and I gave her a tight lipped smile before getting off the couch and rushing upstairs.

I got into the bedroom and shut the door behind me. I ran my fingers through my hair as the tears made their way down my face. I'm trying so hard not to think of her but it takes just a little something to remind me of her and I just can't hold it in anymore.

Its been three days since we got here and I couldn't spend a day without shedding a tear for her. Yesterday, I was having the best time decorating the tree with the whole Family and Valerie but suddenly while hanging an ornament, the memories of doing that Eve hit me like a truck.

I walked to the bed and sat down on the edge. I stared at the starry sky out of the window.

I looked at all the stars to find the one I was looking for but all of them looked the same.

Am I doing the right thing by trying to move of with Valerie? Do I even deserve to do that? I wonder what does Eve feel about Valerie, does she like her or not? 

"If I die young, I definitely would want you to move on" She said.

"Oh really? And what kinda girl do you want me to move on with?" I asked, tucking her wind-blown hair, behind her ear.

"Um, someone who's the opposite of me" She said and I raised my eyebrows.

"Opposite?" I asked and she bit her lip and nodded.

"Someone who isn't shy and ordinary, someone who's as striking as you, confident and smart, beautiful, someone who makes you the happiest" She said and I smiled.

"I don't see any opposite quality here other than 'Confident'" I said and she laughed.

"And what the hell is ordinary? Justin Bieber does not do ordinary so my dear Eve, you aren't ordinary or even close to it" I said and she smiled her shy smile before I wrapped my arm around her shoulder and pulled her closer to me.