Valerie 🥀 • jb x bh

twenty four

Valerie

"And then he just feel down and covered himself in mud" Chaz said and I laughed with him.

He has come here for a small vacation and was staying with Justin.

I glanced at Justin who had zoned off again. I nudged him and he finally looked at me. I bounced my eyebrows to ask him what's wrong but he just shook his head.

I had come here after finally making my mind up about telling everything about Christian to Justin but then I found out Chaz was here.

Justin fiddled with my hair while me and Chaz talked. I didn't bother him, he seemed too lost in what he was thinking.

"Hey Val..." He said softly and I looked at him.

"Yeah?"

"Can we go on a walk?" He asked.

"Now? Its like 8pm" I said but he nodded.

"Please go Val or else he'll yell at me that because me ya'll couldn't get the privacy" Chaz said and I chuckled.

"Okay, let's go" I said and stood up.

I adjusted my top while Justin grabbed our phones and his wallet and we left the house.

After we were out, I wrapped both my arms around his as we walked.

"Hey, what's up with you lately?" I said and he looked at me and shook his head.

"Nothing" He mumbled.

"No shit sherlock you've been so low the last few days, you barely talk, even Ava said she feels something is wrong with you" I said.

"No, nothing like that" He said and kicked a stone.

"Then stop being so quiet!" I said.

"Okay okay....tell me what do you want, ice cream or milkshake?" He asked.

"Ice cream!" I said.

we walked to the near by ice cream shop and then continued walking till we reached a cliff.

"let's sit here for sometime?" He asked and I nodded.

We sat down on a bench beside each other and ate our ice creams in silence as we watched the dark sky and the wind blew our hair in every direction.

After finishing our ice creams, he abruptly turned towards me and hugged me making me smile before I hugged him back.

I think I'm perfectly ready to tell him everything without any fear.

"Hey Jay" I said and he hummed.

"I've been thinking about this a lot and I think I'm ready to tell you everything.....about me that I never told you" I said and he looked up at me and we pulled away.

"You deserve to know it, and before starting, I just wanna tell you that I never wanted to keep you in dark about anything. I was just....ashamed of myself and also, just because I'm telling you doesn't mean you have to share everything with me too. You can take your time okay?" I said and touched his cheek and he licked his lips and nodded.

"I-I met Christian when I was in high school. We had a very healthy and happy relationship. He loved me back just as much as I loved him. But after sometime, his love turned into something else. Something so...s-so dark and and dangerous it was hard to fathom" I couldn't control the way my voice started to shake and Justin grabbed my hand tightly.

"He turned abusive. For a while it was just slapping and pushing. B-But then it got worse. It was no more just slapping and pushing anymore. It was punching and smacking my head against a wall till I bleed....even rape" I said and felt chills run down my spin and tears welled up in my eyes at those horrible memories.

And by the time I looked at Justin again, he himself had tears running down his face.

"But you know what, I could've saved myself. I could've told my parents and the police and got him punished way before. But that's where I went wrong. Instead of doing all that, I stayed mute and....I stayed with him. I thought that maybe....maybe time would change things. But it didn't, everything just kept getting worse. Until one night where Christian crossed every line, he beat me up till I was black and blue and then raped me til I passed out. I woke up in a hospital the next day with six stitches and numerous internal injuries. Then Joe told me how he found out and how he got me out of there. After that day, I never saw Christian again till the reunion" I said and wiped my tears.

"It was all more my fault than his. I should've fought and left him. But love makes us do crazy things sometimes" I said and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me in a tight hug and stroked my hair.

"If I see that piece of shit ever again, I'm cutting him into pieces" He said and I giggled through my tears.

"Sometimes I feel like no man in this world deserves you Val, no one, you're too nice for anyone on this earth" He said and I wrapped my arms around his name.

"Nope, You deserve me, because you're just as nice" I said and kissed his nose but he just gave me a subtle chuckle in return.

"Can I ask you a question?" He asked and I nodded.

"If I was in Christian's place, what would you do?" He asked and I almost felt my heart jump out for a second.

"What!?"

"Hypothetically..." He added putting me at a loss of words.

"You can never do that. You can never be that person" I said but he stared back at me emotionlessly with tears in his eyes.

"But what if I did Valerie? What if I'm abusive-

"Even if you were abusive, you would never do the things he did to me! He was a monster he made me want to die!" I yelled.

"You can never be that" I said and wiped the fresh tears again and he pulled me in another tight hug.

"I'm sorry" he whispered and kissed my head.

"But you're right. I promise I'll never hurt you" He said as his voice cracked and I looked up at him

"Don't even compare yourself to him ever again okay?" I said and he nodded before I leaned in for a kiss.

He kissed me back softly as he gently cupped my face.

"You don't understand how lucky I feel that I found you after all this" I said after we pulled out and he smiled.

"If anyone's lucky then that's me. That after all, someone like you loves me" He said and I connected our foreheads.

"I do....I love you so much" I said.

"I love you too Val" He said.

I'm more than sure that this person can never hurt me. Forget abusing me physically.

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