Open Water - (Beau Bokan fanfiction)

CHAPTER 12

It's been a few weeks now, and the news is old, I started gaining some weight too. I was watching some TV when Beau walked in.

"Hey babe, where are you going?" I asked, as he grabbed his keys.

"I'm just going to the studio to work some things out with the guys, just post-tour stuff." He said.

"Oh cool." I said, "When will you be back?"

"In a few hours." He said and smiled, walking over to me and giving me a kiss.

"I love you." I said, looking at his eyes. Those eyes, like an ocean, so blue and easy to get lost in.

"I love you too, Ill be back." He gave me one last kiss on to top of my head and walked out the door. I flipped through the channels, finally settling on NCIS even though it was an episode I've already seen. Suddenly my phone started ringing, making me jump. I looked at the caller and saw it was Drew again. What the hell does he want? Should I answer?  I decided I would.

"Hello?" I answered after the fourth ring.

"Hey," He said. "We have to talk."

"Drew, I don't want to talk." I snapped. I picked up the remote and started browsing channels again, I don't know why I did though,  must be another habit.

"But it's important!" He said. "When were you going to decide to tell anyone here that you were pregnant?" He said, raising his voice.

"Why does it matter to anyone there?!" I yelled. "You and Ashley both left me at that concert, I understand I told her Beau wanted to hang out, but she didn't even say goodbye. My mom pretty much hates me and I'm here with people who care. You don't get it, this was my escape."

"So getting pregnant was your escape? you're like some sex slave to a band?" He yelled back. "What about us, Perry?!"

"Us ended a long time ago, Drew." I said.

"It's like you've completely forgotten everything. You've thrown away all our memories!" He yelled. "And now you're pregnant again." again.

"Don't you dare bring that up!" I yelled And started to cry. "That was not my fault!"

"You let it drift out of your mind, Perry, you forgot about our child didn't you?!" He shouted. I lost it and just started sobbing.

"It wasn't my fault.." I said and just sobbed.

"That's right. You forgot about our kid, and what we had to go through, What if it happens with this one, Perry? Just abort it while you can, I wonder what your 'boyfriend' Will do about it."

"At least he won't do what you did!" I screamed. Drew went silent.

"Oh. That's right, you forgot." I said. "Don't you remember? I do."

"Perry.." He said softly.

"Don't sit here and tell me I'm doing wrong, when all I ever did was care for you! I got to come home from the hospital without our daughter, just to see you shoving your dick into some whore." I screamed and hung up the phone. I turned off the TV and ran to Beau's bed. Burying my face into the blankets and pillows, crying. I cried for hours, until there was a giant wet spot where my tears soaked into the sheets. I kept seeing it over and over, being in the hospital, holding my dead child. "I'm sorry Perry, She's stillborn." A noise snapped me out of my thoughts and I heard the door open. A very worried Beau rushed over to me.

"Perry?!" He said, rubbing my back. I sat up and hugged him, still crying. I didn't know that I could cry for this long. "Baby, what happened?!" He asked. I couldn't even answer because I was crying so hard. Beau let me go and put down his keys and phone, crawling into bed with me. I continued crying, holding onto him tight. As I started to calm down, he whispered to me,

"Can you tell me what happened?" I uncovered my face from his shirt and wiped my eyes.

"I-I have a lot of things I need to tell you." I said, I'm so scared. He didn't say anything so I continued.

"This isn't my first pregnancy." I blurted. "Drew and I were supposed to have a baby girl, but she was stillborn..." I said starting to cry again. "Drew called me and just tore me apart, he was screaming at me about how I 'forgot' about our kid and how you weren't going to be here for me, because he wasn't there for me, I came home from the hospital and he had another girl in bed with him. He told me to abort the baby." I said fully sobbing again. I smothered my face back into Beau's chest and he held me there.

"I'm so sorry, Per." He said caressing up and down my back. "I don't want you to worry about any of that, don't be afraid that I won't be around to be a dad. I won't leave you by yourself. I mean obviously I'll have to go on tour and do shows, but I'm not going to run off with anyone else." He said. We layed there for a long time.