Open Water - (Beau Bokan fanfiction)

CHAPTER 5

I woke up confused. I had to remind myself where I was and who I was cuddling with. Everything kind of hit me at once. Homeless. Ash. Drew. Marc and Felicia. Plane. Chicago. Blessthefall. Concert. Beau.

Beau.

We were still laying in the position as we fell asleep, my face buried in his chest and his arms wrapped around me. I shifted a little, trying not to wake him. He loosened his grip and sighed but didn't exactly, 'wake up'. I looked at him, and his chest. he had a tattoo that read, 'We're loyal, like brothers.' I traced it with my finger and then played with the tips of his hair. He started to smile. I felt kinda silly.

"Were you awake this whole time?!" I asked. He rubbed his face and giggled,

"Yeah," he opened his eyes and looked at me, this time I didn't look away.

"You're cute, you know that?" he said. I blushed.

"Thanks, I guess.." I said awkwardly. He just smiled and looked at me, running his fingers through my hair. His smile eventually faded and he began to look confused.

"Can I ask why you were crying last night, and why you came to lay with me?" He asked, my smile expired as well.

"I just...I don't know.." I said. That was the biggest bullshit answer I've ever given.

"Perry, you can trust me." He said. I looked away from him. We didn't say anything for a long time "Let me drive you home?" he finally asked. I looked at him, He looked so concerned for me.

"Beau.." I said and looked away, I started to cry again. He lifted my chin with his hand.

"Please don't cry," he said and wiped away my tears. "Tell me what's wrong, so I can help you." He looked at me. His eyes were so easy to get lost in.

"Beau, I don't have anywhere to go." I said. He still looked confused, so I explained further. "I didn't tell my mom I was leaving, I just left, and I mean I'm twenty-two, I should be able to do that, but my parents keep me locked up like I'm in prison, I told her where I was and she told me to never come back, that I was a waste of her time. I don't even live around here, I live in Florida. I don't have any money,  don't have anyone, im lost and alone." I said, sobbing even more. He looked away from me, I immediately felt guilty and started apologizing. "I'm so sorry, Beau."

"Don't apologize," He said, pulling me close to him. I buried my face into his chest and just cried.

"Perry, we'll fix this." He whispered, and kissed the top if my head. We layed there until we heard the other band members get up. Beau reach up and opened the bunk curtain, I got out first and he came after me. When we walked out to where the others were eating. They all stopped and stared at me, I probably looked a wreck, like I had been crying for hours...which I had. Finally Jared spoke up.

"I thought she left."

Beau just shook his head, and I felt like I wasn't supposed to be here. I sat down next to Beau and ate some waffles that had been made. I never made eye contact with any of the other bandmates. I just ate and sat silently, it was a quiet morning. suddenly Beau spoke up.

"Perry is staying the rest of the tour with us." What?! Did he just say I could stay here?

All the forks clanked on the plates as they were being dropped. All the eyes were on Beau now.

"Beau, can I please speak to you outside?" Jared asked. Beau nodded and they walked off the bus. I sat there in silence, not really knowing what to say or do. I just got up and went to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror at myself, looked at all the flaws and imperfections. I was not worth this, Beau didn't need to drag me along, I didn't want to be a bother. You're so ugly, you're a waste of-

there was a knock on the door.

"Perry? are you alright?" It was Beau. I didn't say anything, I opened the door and just hugged him.

"Beau, you don't need to take me on tour with you, I'll find somewhere to be." I said. He laughed.

"You're not a nuisance, Perry. And you sound funny when your face is buried into my chest like that." He said, making me giggle. I looked up at him and he wiped away a lonely tear sliding down my cheek. "You're beautiful," He said "and I want to be here for you." I blushed and he put his arm around me and led me back to the living area.

...

It was a lot less awkward after a few hours, we played some Xbox, in which I reigned champion in Mario-kart.

"Ha! suck it, losers!" I'd shout and they'd all laugh. I had a lot of fun.

We had been on the road headed to Oregon, for the next show. I had changed back into my jeans but kept on Beau's shirt, it smelt good. Once we got to Oregon, Beau pulled me aside,

"So I thought we should probably get you some new clothes," he said. I looked down at my outfit.

"Your shirt is pretty comfy.." I said giggling,  he held both of my hands.

"C'mon let's go shopping, we have two hours before sound check."

"Really?" I asked. He just nodded and grabbed my hand, leading me off to the mall. It was so funny to see fans run up to him and idolize him, He was so humble with them. Shopping with a rock star is crazy too, he bought me anything I wanted. Anything. It was so weird.