Open Water - (Beau Bokan fanfiction)

CHAPTER 19

*Perry's P.O.V.*

We had been home for about a week.

"Perry, are you okay?" Beau asked me. No, I'm not okay. Does it look like I'm okay Beau?!...No, why am I getting mad at him? I love him. Remember Perry? You love him. "Perry?" He asked again, this time sitting down next to me on the couch.

"I have to call my mom." I said. That sentence stands on it's own. Beau kissed the top of my head as I leaned onto his shoulder.

"Have I ever told you how beautiful you are?" He said, I smiled looking up at him and kissing him. I needed that kiss. "You are so beautiful, I can barely handle it." He laughed, kissing me again. "You're also strong, you can do so much and I envy the strength and power you have. It's like you're a mountain, beautiful and strong, and no matter how hard something or someone tries to make you crumble, you won't fall. You'll stand your ground." He was rubbing circles on my back. "And if one day you cave in from everyone trying to knock you down, I'll be here to support you. I won't let them harm you." I hadn't noticed that I'd started crying. I've been crying too often.

"Beau, I'm scared." I said with a tremor in my voice.

"Perry, look at me." He said. I looked up and met his eyes, tears leaving a shiny trail down my cheek. "You are too strong to be afraid." I crashed my lips into his, more tears leaving my eyes. When I released the kiss I started sobbing uncontrollably

"I'm not as strong as everyone thinks I am!" I yelled, Standing up and gripping my hair with my fists. "I am so weak!" I screamed. "You don't understand, you have mobs of fans covering every little insecurity you have. I have barely anyone, and its my fault. I almost killed my sister! I'm driving myself to insanity!" Beau was standing up now, coming towards me, but I didn't notice. I was too busy punching the wall. I put a hole through it.

"Perry, stop!" Beau yelled, coming up behind me and picking me up by the waist. He turned me around so I was facing him and pulled me into his chest, I continued punching. "Baby, please stop." He said softer. I melted into his chest, crying and crying. I wouldn't stop. I would not fucking stop. When I had calmed down a little, I noticed Beau was crying too.

"I'm sorry." I cried.

"It's okay." He cried as well.

"What happened?" A voice said. I turned around to see Kendall standing a few feet away from Beau and I, she examined the hole in the wall.

"Nothing Kendall," I said, "Go back to bed."

"Bullshit, don't be like mom. Tell me what happened." She said.

"Beau and I were just talking." I said.

"Perry, I'm not stupid. Was it an argument?" She asked.

"Kendall please, listen to your sister." Beau said wiping tears from his eyes. I could see Kendall's anger rising.

"Don't tell me what to do, are you my father now?!" She said.

"Christ! Kendall go to bed!" I yelled.

"What if I'm not tired?!" She yelled back. "You're just like Mom and Dad! I wouldn't be surprised if you got into an argument with Beau and he tried to slip into my bed." Where the hell did that come from.

"Excuse me?" Beau said. "What did you say?!" He yelled at her.

"You heard me dumbass!" She shouted. Beau charged forward at her, pinning her against the wall.

"I don't know what I did to make you think that I would ever sleep with you, but listen to me Kendall I wouldn't. That thought makes me sick!" He spat at her. "Get out of my house."