Drawing Journal #1 || LunarCassiopeia

December 18th, 2017

[9:21 am]

I'm really sad to hear that Shinee's Kim Jongyun passed away. I pray that his family and friends are okay. Kim Jonghyun was an amazing and talented singer but now he's in a better place and he will be dearly missed.

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I saw under one of BigHit's post, something about Shinee and I was so confused and then a few minutes later, my sister told me that one of the members of Shinee died so I went to Twitter and the news of Jonghyun's death was trending all over Twitter.

I was so heartbroken to read that he had committed suicide and died on the way to the hospital. It broke my heart even more when I found out he was only 27.

I actually started tearing up and felt like crying. I don't know Shinee too well but I love their music and it's just really heartbreaking to hear one of the members passing away.

I heard from a friend that Jonghyun is usually very happy and it was shocking to hear that he committed suicide. Then again, sometimes, the happiest people are the ones hurting the most.

I'm still waiting to hear the official statement from SM but still... It's really sad that such an amazing singer died... At such a young age...

Another friend, V, thought it was a joke at first but we told her it was real and we were not okay.

I'm really sad to hear that happened and I hope things with be okay for Shawols.

[IMPORTANT UPDATE]

I currently looked at the news and 30 mins again, I saw that there's still a chance that Jonghyun might live. The Shawols at the hospital are saying that he's currently receiving oxygen therapy to excrete the oxygen monoxide from his body. If this is true, he will has high chances of living. He's currently fighting for his life and I'm praying that things will be alright.

Please let everything be alright...

[UPDATE]

SM has officially released that Jonghyun has passed away.

I...

I was really hoping there was a chance...

I'm just...

Heartbroken...

Why...

It's so hard to accept that fact...

I...

I'm not okay...

I really wanted things to be false...

I wanted him to live...

He was so young...

And I know what depression feels like and that...

He had so much potential...

And not to make an example of him but this further shows that mental illnesses is something we shouldn't take lightly...

If any of you ever don't feel right inside, please know that you can reach out to others and that you're well loved.

I'm planning on drawing something for Jonghyun and I will pray for the best...

[4:17 pm]

I tried....

Rest in peace Kim Jonghyun...