The Pandemonuim that is Evangeline Hisahoshi

Help.... Me...

Help,

Please,

I dotn knwo what happened.

These two boys in my crush's third period class know about my crush on him and are gonna tell him tomarrow. I want to tell him myself, it being almost a year And all, but I'm not ready. I'm forced to tell him now because of the two jerkwads but I know he will hate me now because of it.

What do I do?

Do I confess or let it be?

What do I say?

Be blunt or indirect?

I have a small window of time heading to third period (it's finals week And third finals is tomarrow meaning third period is first period) after we do the usual library thing.

We normally meet in the library and just chill and read at a table. 

He doesn't talk much so I had to get him to warm up and open up to me before he let the real him show. He's not shy, jsut introverted. He can't help it, but he is extraordinary.

 Since this school year started we started talking more, having first period together, and I got him to smile more often. I never made him smile before so it really gave me a boost of affection and confidence. I used to give him a little handful of candy and a cookie dough bar as treats but he went on a diet and literally asked me to stop. But when I pass by his table when he has lunch (A lunch and while we're transitioning) I tell him what we're doing in math or say something relevant to the earlier conversation before and/or after first period and go off. I started doing the hair Boop thing Yuuri does to Viktor After I watched Yuri!!! on Ice and now I just put my palm on the top of hsi heads for five seconds. I asked him out seven times but I'm sure he didn't notice it as a date because it was indirect like, "Are you free Saturday?" "When are you available?" "Do you want to go to Wendy's this weekend?" "I got twenty bucks, wanna go to lunch?"and "I heard Canes is open again, wanna go?".

 Today I went out of my way despite my classroom I was supposed to be headed to was the other way to talk to him and he asked where I was gonna go. I replied with the words "does it matter?" He said yes so I replied. My classroom was upstairs and we were downstairs so he started nagging me. I don't know if it was because he was worried I'd be late or if it wa because he didn't want me there, but it became a game. I did the same thing right before last period and he nagged me again, but it was just a turn between two hallways. It was fun, none of the less, but here is legit how the conversation went: "Guess who!" "Hey (insert real name)" pause. "What's your next class?" "Does it matter?" "Not again." "What?" "Go to class." "I don't want to!" "Go to class." "I wanna talk to you!" "You just did, now go to class." "Noooo!" "Go to class!" "Awwww. Fine."

One of my girls in my group of best friends had a crush on him before me when mine developed And I felt so bad. I hated myself for liking him when she did and I still teased her though I was dying inside when I did. When she got over him I cpudlnt belive it and I tried my best not to seem ecstatic. But when she liked him, he didn't care. People would ask him about her and when someone (a.k.a me) asked if he knew he said yes and he said he just didn't care. They still have a bomb friendship though And are really good friends, but I'm worried. He knew her and they already were close. He probally just sees me as annoying and whatnot. He probally secretly hates me already. He's gonna hate me if I tell him...

I'm sorry to bother you.

Please comment advice.

I'm stuck.

I need this before school tomarrow morning when I have to tell him.

It's 12/18/17