The Pandemonuim that is Evangeline Hisahoshi

I am ACTUALLY SCREAMING

I just sent

This message

To THE Daniel Howell 

Hey Dan, if you're reading this it means a lot to me and I may bring up some touchy subjects but I feel I need to address this topic for the sake of the majority of the phandom. Not everyone, but the majority (the phangirls):

Is Phan Real?

I know this question may seem hard to answer and I know it's not my place to pressure you into answering this, but can we think about the facts for just a few moments? Thank you if you're still reading.

How many Phil is not on fire videos do we have? Nine. That means for at least nine years you've been brining out content of you and Phil together doing adorable, ship worthy things together making the Phangirls grow rapidly by the video.

You have countless videos together and you even have your own channel together! Not to mention living now in the same home. There are millions of, let's face it, twelve year old shippers out there that are asking themselves every day if their OTP is cannon or not. I know you understand what I mean about this, you made a video about fandoms.

If you're still reading, this means a lot to me still. Thank you for making it this far.

Now, as I'm aware you are an anime fan. Right? You've seen Yuri on Ice? Well, what if episode eleven was the last episode and it just ended with Depressed Viktor And just us beleiving that Yuuri was quitting ice skating for good. You would feel dissatisfied, wouldn't you? Eager to know what happens next? That's the feeling we have. That anticipation to know if our headannons are right or wrong.

Humans are wired to take satisfaction in knowing that they were right. So if we get a confirmation, wether it's real or not, it will still satisfy us deep down because we have finally acquired information we've been waiting for.

I know you really don't need this right now, you may not be ready, and celebrity (youtuber) relationships sometimes don't work out or even it isn't true and you're just really good friends. I will speerate this next bit into parts based on if it's true or not.

If it's true:

I just wanted to let you know that for every person that is a stupid homophobic bitch (excise my language) there will be another dozen people who support you and still will love you no matter what. We all have your back and will be with you no matter what.

You have support from your fans and everything. There is nothing wrong with living another man, no matter what other people say. I know confirming this and coming out (on YouTube) as bisexual/gay/pansexual (don't discriminate) is hard.

But know that the people who truly matter are with you every step of the way.

If it's not:

Sure, the hardcore shippers will be diviststed. But for every devastated fangirl there will be at least three or more people with humane common sense to accept it and help you through this.

No matter what, the people that matter will have your back, accept the truth, and still love you. We all still love you Dan. No matter what you choose and no matter who you love.

Maybe if you could make a video sometime. It doesn't have to be immediately. Hell,(excuse my lanaguage), it doesn't even have to be this year! Whenever you and Phil are comfortable to let loose this information, if you ever decide to let loose this information, do it.

Do what's comfortable for you, boo.

If you're still reading this after all my banter (I hope I used the word right, sorry for offending you if I didn't), it means so much to a phangirl like me with such a useless rant you probably don't care about enough to read.

I also want to say some things I would want to say if I met you in real life:

-You are Awesome

-You make my days after school bearable

-Your smile makes me smile

-Your laugh makes me Laugh

-Thank you so much for doing this, existing, and being a literal sunshine

-You are perfect just the way you are and you are an interesting person. If anyone's says otherwise I will rush over there all the way from America and swing a softball bat in their face.

- Don't let anyone else bring you down because they don't accept you. The only opinions that matter are the ones you choose to let matter. And those should only be the opinions of your loved ones

If anything ever happens or you need a friend to talk to, my email is akairiahikaru@gmail.com

It may take me a bit to reply, because I don't check email that often, but I would love to help you through anything you're going through. Or if you want to talk to me sooner, I also have a wattpad. (Plz don't judge me for the works I write, I told you I'm a hardcore fangirl. XD) @Fandomz_Fangirl

Again, thank you for reading this whole thing and it means so much to me. I am so sorry about any spelling or grammatical errors I may have made in this giant rant. I want to help you and I end to bring this point up to you. I also wanted to tell you that you mean so much to not only me, but to your whole phanbase.

Keep up being awesome

And do what you choose to do.

~Evangeline Hisahoshi

I don't know why! I did! 

I was just thinking about "what if I could talk to Dan?"and I wrote this!

God I'm so cringe!

Oh my god what if he ACTUALLY TALKS TO ME!?

OMG

or worse

WHAT IF HE MAKES THE VIDEO

AND REFERENCES THIS MESSAGE

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

Yeah, I'm an anxious bean right now.

Send help

~Eva