Lost and in love

Chapter 5- Is it ever going to be easy?

Kate:

Its 6:30, todays Monday and im really nervous and excited because I can't wait to see Jake today, I haven't been able to stop thinking about him. It's helped to get my mind off the bullying but now im feeling sick thinking about it and I don't know whether to go or not anymore. Why can't I just be happy for once and not have to worry about being bullied but then im not the average girl and I don't exactly have luck on my side. So I decide to call my friend Ellie, she has been calling me to ask how the doctor's appointment went but I didn't really want to talk about it. I should call her now though because she is one of the only people I can trust now, she supports me whenever I'm down, she's always telling me she'll tell them off for doing that to me and shes probably really worried right now.

So I pick up my phone and scroll through my contacts list to find Elllie's name and Its ringing right now maybe I should't be telling her about this, I start to click the end button and she picks up with concern in her voice. "I've been calling you all week"... she starts to say but I cut her off "Ellie i didn't end up going in to talk to the doctor".

"Oh Kate why you really needed it?"

Tears start forming in my eyes and I try to fight them back "Ellie".. I say through gasps "I met a guy there and he asked why I was there. I told him I wasn't sick but but he asked why im there, I didn't know how to answer him and before I knew it tears were threatening to spill and I broke apart and ran to the bathroom. My mum then drove me home because I was such a wreck after that, I'm sorry I didn't call you back but I didn't feel like talking about it".

Ellie: "Kate are you crying?" she asks shock and concern filing her voice. "I don't get why they're doing this to you. You've never hurt them before and don't they have better things to do? I swear if they say one more thing to you im going to punch their faces in".

"Ellie" I scolded "no you're not and I don't want you to get in trouble for something that's my fault and I probably deserve it".

"Kate (Ellie sounded really angry right now) why don't you realise that this isn't your fault and you definently don't deserve this".

"Im sorry Ellie" I say glancing at the clock quickly "the bullying is really getting to me and I hope it will stop and go away . But its 7:30 and i have to go get ready now. Bye Ellie ill see you at school".

"Bye Kate I'll see you at school meet me at the front" she says.

"Ok I will" I say and I press the end button.

I go into the bathroom and take quick but relaxing shower. I start thinking about my mum tears start forming in my eyes I really shouldn't be crying right now but what else am I supposed to do, I feel so lost right now. My mums been trying to talk to me about what happened at that doctors appointment but I don't know how to tell her about the names their calling me. I dont want her to be worried and what if she blames me?

I get out of the shower and go to my closet to find something to wear. In the end i pick out a red frilly skirt with a long sleeved black shirt and black stockings, next i go to my mirror and blow dry my hair i then get my hair straightener out and straighten my hair. I want to put some light make up so i put on eyeliner, bb cream, mascara and a rosy red lipstick.

Its 8:10 now so i'll eat some cornflakes and than brush my teeth. After that my mum comes downstairs to take me to school and i run to her and hug her tightly taking in her scent. "Im sorry"... i whisper "its not my fault".

"Oh honey its ok dont worry about it but i want you to tell me everything after school by the way you look pretty today".

Oh i thought about what she said and than nodded my head. "Thankyou i say and i'll tell you everything. Im sorry but its really hard to talk about".

"Well we should go now Kate and if you need anything you can just call me" she tells me. Ok thank you mum" I reply and now were in the car driving to school. It's an awkward silence so I decide to turn the radio. We get to school after 10 minutes and my mum pulls over near the gate.

"Bye mum" I say. "Bye darling" she says, i close the door and start walking over to the front of the school to wait for Ellie. Oh there's Ellie walking into the school, "hey Ellie" i yell and she walks over and i hug her tightly after about a minute she hugs back.

All of a sudden Ellie she drops her hands and looks towards the gate "oh who's that guy i've never seen him here before" she says excitement all over her voice I look up to look and see Jake my heart skips a beat, we lock gazes for 10 seconds and suddendly i have the urge to walk away so i take Ellie's hand and drag her to the bathroom.

"Ellie thats the guy i saw at the doctors" i whisper and shes looking at me gasping and her eyes opened wide.

"Oh im so sorry Kate i didn't mean to upset you but you should have walked over and said hi" she says.

I suddenly feel my face heating up in embarrassment and i look away, "Ellie i think i like him and i'm to embarrassed to go talk to him" I say.

"Aww Kate thats so cute but don't worry about it, oh do you know his name and if he's in our grade and and... mmph".

"Ellie"! i put a hand to her mouth to stop her from rambling on with questions because she has a habit of doing that. "His names Jake and yeah he's in our grade" i state "and i ran away from him he probaby hates me now".

Suddenly the bells ringing "bye Ellie" i say and i head off in the direction of my roll call room just as I'm about to grab the handle someone grasps my hand and i stand there in shock. What If it's one of the bullies I stand waiting for the pain. Breath i tell myself and i decide to turn around. I slowly turn around and I'm surprised when I see who it is.

Hey everyone i hope you's are enjoying this book and can you's guess who's grasping onto to her arm. Comment what you's think below and don't forget to vote, im really sorry for the late update but i've been busy. Chapter song fifteen by Taylor Swift i really like this song and i hope you's like it.